MadFox45 wrote:Honestly, I've stayed with someone who has emotionally abused me for 5 years... can't say I'm ready for a relationship with anyone... male or female.... ever again really.
i do believe though, that there are the good ones. with what has happened to me... Im surprised at myself for having this point of view... it could be a spirit talking though...
Now, I've always liked older men... as long as someone isn't younger than me... its cool. you can't really say that all men are arses... unless you've met every single being on this planet.
I do understand where you're coming from though.
Was it last year I was ranting, or before that? I don't even know anymore
I can only say, that since that has happened I have come a long way. I did come to understand myself more as well, and the guys I was probably ranting about, ... well, you're with two for every relationship I guess. If I'm acting like a crazy 'lunatic' ( like totally begging them to talk to me, but then totally go all war on them if they do), I can't expect them to be okay with that. I still think it would be easier to make soup of guys, because they can totally be annoying from time to time, but... in the end, there are days when most people are really annoying. Some days it's better to make soup from every single one.
The thing is I'm a person with extreme heights and extreme lows. I have found a nice meme for myself: Some days I need love, other days I don't need sh*t from anyone. Some days I want to save the world, some days I can do nothing but to watch it burn, some days I feel so alive, other days I barely survive.
About hate... it's very close to love. I guess the thing is, it's easier to say you hate them, if you know you will never get them back. I'm pretty sure my love for them, would be kinda the same as what the Witch told Danaerys Targaryen about Drogo: Oh yes, he would return, when the mountains blow away on the wind like leaves, when the sun sets in the east and rises in the west, and when the seas become dry desserts, that's when he will return, and not before... Yes, Hating them is so much more fun clearly
The thing is with an online forum, I mostly forget the fact that people don't see me face to face. If you would see me face to face, you would probably be like: oh yeah, she is ranting again about nothing. Let's take some popcorn, a drink and watch her like it's a new movie in the cinema.
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