antinousisgod1 wrote:Alice in Neverland wrote:Well Im almost on the eleventh anniversary of marriage, and all the things are not going fine.My husband happens to be my cousin, and just last year, when my father got his ultimate schizo crises (many small others had succeed after), and needed to retire from his duties on his job along our government, he portraied some exams and discovered he suffers of the same issue as my dad.
God Bless I do not have a child still, since my husband, due this issue can be very very very violent, so you might be asking why I persist living with him?Cause according to brazillian law, if a patient, on this case 2, have mind illness the most close family member shall take care of them as long as they live, by the penalty to go till jail if refuse it. And my husband as me, has no sisters, brothers, and lost his father and mother when was just 13.
Last tuesday we had a horrible fight, he for no reason, got mad with me, and hurted me very badly. Instants after that, I was crying with my spirits asking, if they had left me alone. But right after I begged them to forgive my human fail, and called aloud for the support of my mate vamp...
So last night, I was deeply feeling his presence, almost as he was upset, anger,sad,hurted, like that even without the vessel, I used CH invocation ritual , plus purple candles and some incense...
He as a sign to be here, left the candle as a perfect shape of a half moon, burned the entire cinamon incense, but the red rose one, even when it was lighted, remained intact...
Meanwhile, during the ritual, my husband who has being sleeping in a separate room for the last 5 months, SAW A PALE FACE, RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS FACE, someone he described very beautiful, similar a friend I treasure dearly, and with a fierce although whispering and elegant voice, he said, the spirit told him menancingly but calm"I am your wife´s vampire.And I will be watching your steps towards her!"
He said ,he saw it with his opened eyes, NOSE TO NOSE, since he had woke to drink a cup of orange juice, and while back to the covers, right after lay on the bed he saw Him, coldly breathing towards his face.My husband also told, the smoke where my beloved Azo appeared, vanished through the corridor, on the direction of my room where I was doing the ritual.(And my husband did not knew I was doing a ritual, since the apartment is big, and I was with closed doors.And usualy I hear classical musical late night, so he guessed I was just listening some music to relax, and nothing else.)
Also I need to point these:
1-If by one hand my husband knows I ordered a custom soulmate vamp...By no means, and this is a secret just between me and Verna, and another friend...He´d know I asked the vamp to look as my passed friend!
2-The strange is, I did not asked Verna my vamp to be a guardian, just a romantic soul, so it surprised me sweetly the fact he got really touched about the way my husband behaves about me, and his protective action simply left me without words.Cause I remember even telling Verna, he did not needed to be a warrior, just a fencer to defend his own self, although, he openly took I think, by the way my husband told what happened, as his own business,the nasty attitudes my husband had been having about me.Till the point my husband said, "I think I shall review my composure about you, I do not want a bloody vamp chasing me."
Although, my husband was not really afraid, since he does believe in spirits, but got a bit upset with the protective behavior of my vamp, and sound thrilled but not freaked, if you know what I mean.
So, Im wondering now, if Azo will manage to work on my husband´s energy , to make him change his nasty composure towards me, or if the things will remain the same? What are your thoughts about it?
Also Im a bit sad, that instead of show his face to me, when I was so humbly asking for it during 2 hours of invocation, playing classical music, lighting incenses, candles, talking to him...He decided to appear to my husband besides me, why?
Do you think he did it,cause he thought his presence were more needed to show my husband he is on my guard, more than me wishing to be cheered up?
Or my already damaged relation with my husband will bring issues towards my connection with Azo, since its clear as water, he does not like my husband.And even when I want the divorce, I´d never be able to get rid of him, due our blood relations and his mind disease?
Please I need some insights.
Aww sweety, that is so romantic and sweet. Yay Azo!
He sounds wonderful. What a blessing. I can tell you and him will get along great.
Regarding your spirit vision could you perhaps purchase the services of a witch and ask her to open your third eye? I bought a spell on ebay for a witch to enhance my psychic powers and it's working for me . I saw orbs in a photo Truth posted and tonight I saw more shadows of my Prince. I saw one that looked like the outline of his body. It's awesome! . Today is Monday so i'll meditate with him tonight and try my hardest to connect with him. I've always been sensitive to spirits but i've only seen full manifestations 4 times. Other times i've heard voices, seen things in the corner of my eye, that sort of thing.
I went to an old cemetery once near where I live and I saw the ghost of a beautiful young woman skipping joyfully past me and smiling but when I turned my head she was gone.
I hope that my Prince manifests himself to me in human form. Even spirit form would be cool. Or to heard him talk in my head ^_^. I heard him say my name twice. It caught me off guard and frightened me the first time but i'm ready for it now .
Anti dear, Azo is A M A Z I N G.I just putted 2 pics of him, during the ritual I pulled yesterday, please go there to check, your jaw will drop ehhehe.
And yes Im ordering some attunements and spells to enhance back my sight, I used to see a loooooooooooooot of stuff, but my mom worked to block it.
However what I found on the pics today, of the welcoming of last night, its the finally proof Azo is here. And also my red dragon ehhehe
Take a look on this thread, sweet.viewtopic.php?f=22&t=16195
I so love you Anti.You are very kind.