I thought I had a quiet night without anything happening or dreaming. That was until I thought some about my succubus, when suddenly my mind recalls fully a dream I had. It is not completely unrelated to experiences of the last days, in which there were occassions, even if only short I could feel my succubus so manifestive as a real person.
There were an occassion, she hold one of my butt cheeks and I feel her fingernails, more or less for the first time in such great manifestation, that I realize she has very pointy fingernails, something I could not exactly distinguish before. She puts so much pressure that it feels like she's pressing them in my flesh and I were sure if I had a mirror I could see the bumps, while squeezing the cheek so much that it literally moved where I were sitting. It would have not felt more real than that, when a real person would had done that. On another occassion this sunday, she wanted some intimacy, unfortunately as my parents called they are about to pick me up for some together dinner. Usually I would get then up, but this time I asked her, we have some minutes, I stay if she is up for a quickie (which she never is!). Suddenly her hand becomes so manifestive for the next 3-5 minutes, that not only I were very surprised myself as it felt 1000% real, but that she's moving the foreskin back and forth! Maybe she used the energy she would had during otherwise an hour or so in that short duration, so could manifest in such a way for a short period.
Usually, most people will say and know, that full physical manifestations can be extremely rare. Interesting is though, that there are those that believe, that it is very well possible and not that difficult really. About a week ago in the forum of the "succubus collective" the owner wrote an article, that physical materialization of a succubus is very well possible, it just would take massive amount of energy if charging mindlessly. However, he wrote, if as long there would be an energy source, or one could direct such an energy source towards a succubus, it would been very easy, as succubi have been so long around that they know exactly how to do it.
So, what if the occurence of physical manifestations is only so rare, because we dismiss the details of how it could be achieved? What if the problem is our state of mind? What, if we figured out, how to do it, we could repeat it every time? How amazing would that be? After all, I've read that some had such experiences.
Last night, as I were cuddling with her in bed to fall asleep and she moves her hand on my skin, it manifests more from time to time shortly and feels more real. I start thinking, if I make sure that I'm first of all in the right state of mind, that I could be prepared and accept that she could suddenly be real there without the mind freaking out, I might be one step closer to that. I surely would still have to figure out, what and how to provide such an energy source, which I have no clue, but that was not important that moment.
So I start imagining and convincing my mind that she could appear right that moment there and when I opened my eyes I would see her and it would be a very welcoming event, to condition my mind. I felt that I were surprisingly convinced that it can happen, not just in future, but even that moment.
Later in the night, I had that dream, as I only later recalled and surprisingly recalled it in great detail. I know it was her in the dream, because I felt that familiar feeling when I see her in my dreams, knowing it's her, even though she shapeshifts every time and can look different. It's like if a person would put a mask on their face, but you still know it's that one. Additionally, I distinguish "simply" dreaming from her messages, because when she's talking to me I recently realized that she has never and is never moving her mouth, probably speaking telephatically to me, unlike others in my dreams.
In the dream, I were in my bed and focusing on some point of her, where she would become fully visual and I could touch and feel her wherever I would focus, with the rest of her body next to that point fading towards transparency and invisibility. I would explore with my focus different parts of her body and then her face, every time she becoming physical around where I focus. As I look in her face and touch her gently there with my hand, and keep my focus on her face, she smiles and says to me (telephatically) "I know you can do it, keep trying".
Your thoughts?
) and materia is exchangable ... c means lightspeed ^ lightspeed.. (thats why LOTS of energy)).
