One more thing is the tendency to ponder on the past or future, 'hidden meaning relating to those' and the sensations of that for some reason rather than now. When I tried to meditate last time and managed to focus on the present, I could feel the sensations of things in present surroundings more again too. I do know if I could create anything or go anywhere the first I would do is go into a 'sanctuary' I created for myself where I can't be disrupted by any disharmony.Likes2Read wrote:In that case, acknowledging (aloud, perhaps) that those old coping strategies can be safely discarded, because your situation is entirely different now, is a step to consider. The subconscious mind sometimes needs to hear these things, so it can get to work on its new task... especially when the NEW task is a direct contradiction of the OLD task.
A book I have reread multiple times is Urban Shaman by Serge Kahili King, who wrote about Hawaiian shamanic teachings. They acknowledge separate aspects of our mind, Lono and Ku, that roughly (though not precisely) behave like our concepts of the conscious and subconscious minds. When you address the Ku in this way, aloud, you are telling it what you want it to do for you.
BUT. (There is always a "but", isn't there?) Before addressing the Ku, be aware that it doesn't perceive the concept of NO or NOT. So telling it "Do not be afraid" will have the opposite affect. Therefore, only tell your Ku what you DO want it to do, not what you do NOT want it to do.
The book does a better job explaining all this than I just did, so I highly recommend reading the book. But this concept has stuck with me for a lot of years.
So now, armed with a new reading assignment, craft some marching orders for your subconscious that will give it new, constructive things to work on, like "Do ABC", rather than telling it "Do not XYZ".
I did work on creativity as said but the problem was half the time trying to 'perfect' it by adding 'structure' when it felt 'too sloppy'. That could have been where the issue started. The fear of 'failure' or feeling judgement.