I'm still far away from hearing her thought, but recently I heard her spoke to me, just few words, and it's just like a dialogue popped out. Mostly I just feeling it.
Also, I got dream which is a bit terrifying. I don't know if it will be okay to just share it. I dreamt that she was brought destruction to peoples that hurted me, from the past actually. She said "I will destroy whoever hurt you." The dream happened after I watched horror actually, about spirit who will avenge for the companion, I don't know if it's what caused the dream.
From there, I tell you one of my dark side is grudge. I scared if she might just hurt anyone. I've spoke to her to be more wise about it, also I prefer her to just support me than avenge my grudge. Hope she will understand.
I understand actually, if she really became that mad, but I don't think I can tell my personal issue here.
How do you think Vey? Could it be a message from her?
The dream part could be that, just a dream. If it reflect her intentions however, then just make sure to inform her what your limits are, what you're okay and not okay with. It can be as simple as writing a note on your phone, and focusing on allowing her to read it, or mentally "sending" the thought process to her.
Trouble with grudges eh? *thinking* That's interesting *nods* Also, it's a step forward, if you are able to admit it to yourself, and/or others, about what makes up you, both the positive, and the negative. Not everyone can look at themselves in a mirror, so to speak, so take that as a compliment you're on a good track. ^_^
One thing I will note, there's "negative" traits, and a "dark" side. Both are different, as Wulfke, Valkirija, and Kitsune explained rather well.
Dark sides aren't necessarily "negative" or "evil" in a the same sense. They can
draw upon those emotions, and more easily for some, but it's not what makes up that side metaphorically.
Look at it this way. Us humans, are DA. And are both capable of terrible, terrible things, and incredibly, compassionate, selfless things.
DA is the walking line between the light and the dark. It's a choice, like our life can be at times :P
It could be a message from her, the dream, yes, and depending, it could also just be a dream. Not sure on that. It could be a message, and the...intensity of it, wasn't intended, as that wha you happened to be dreaming about at the time.
I hope you're able to inquire one way or another : )
Back to the dark topic, it's something I've been exploring for the past while myself.A thing to note, is what is "dark"? It's often subjective, as depending on whom you talk to, it can differ from person to person. What one person may consider "dark" may not be what another person considers "dark" unless it's literal darkness, physically or visually.
Honestly, to keep this relatively straightforward, one thing you could look into, as suggested to me by Darkwing a few times, is the shadow self.
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It can be different from person to person, so to give a basic idea, I'll mention some findings of my own.
First thing to note, I originally went searching because a friend mentioned that she thinks I would do well with darker energies, as well as some other people/things saying similar.
Wasn't sure what to "look" for, and there were a few dead-ends/mistakes. Mainly being associating "dark" with "negative emotions". It's definitely a way to vent those energies, but doesn't necessarily define it.
Somewhat ironically, it was the way I eventually came into tune with it.
I often had a fear of the dark. Literal dark, like when the closet door is slightly open, and you're trying to sleep, or a dim basement, with a flickering bulb.
Wasn't something I really admitted to, even myself, as it wasn't a literal "fear" I felt, but I felt uneasy always, and wouldn't want to stick around, but my stubborn side wanted to not "run away" so I was left in a weird middle indecisive state.
After researching things like the shadow self, and meeting this group of astral beings, whom are literally from a shadow realm, I decided to walk down to the dark area, and have a "conversation" with the darkness.
Yes, I know, sounds crazy. I had always felt a sort of...presence, in the dark, however. Still can't quite explain it.
And you know what? Even tho it was only "speaking" to the dark, there was an acceptance there. Embracing this ironic (ironic due to some personal things) fear of the dark, and getting beyond it.
After that, I've been exploring various aspects.
It's a personal path of self acceptance in a way, after all.
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Emotions are what make us human. Regardless of WA, DA, labels.
The labels, while they can help, can also be limiting. In basic terms of energy, it can help, although when it comes to astral beings, not everyone snugly fits into a labeled box, just keep that in mind, like what Kitsune said:
Kitsune wrote:Just because something is WA doesn't make us a fluffy cuddly puffball of love and rainbows. WA can be dangerous as well. It's a very common misconception, and honestly with the definition CH gives, nothing is either WA nor BA, but totally DA.
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Hmmm... I may have run off track with that. Although who knows, perhaps it may be of some interest to you, my apologies for that long tangent
In the end, I do think it's perfectly okay to have someone of what you may consider a darker nature, as a companion, and while it is good to learn to handle your emotions, having them isn't "wrong". It's how you react to them, and handle them, that can be right or wrong : 3
As for the message, maybe she will let you know in one way or another, that that was her. ^_^ Merely will have to wait and see, and perhaps practice on telepathy, or another medium of communication. Trust me, it will come with time