Help:nightmares and other events (long read)
Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2017 6:38 am
Hi i am new here so i hope this is in the right area.
i have been suffering from severe nightmares and sleep paralysis my whole life almost several times a week.They are intense and seem very long and drawn out. I'm not talking about typical bad dreams i'm talking about horrible dreams that stick with me even after waking up. i am 40 years old and sometimes after these dreams im am scared to go back to sleep or even be in the dark cause i sense something is still around me and this feeling can last hours or days even.
my sleep paralysis isn't waking its in my dream's that im paralyzed .
examples of some dreams:
When i was around 8 was the first nightmare i was be chased by a witch type being and all i could feel was dread i woke up and my hands were missing and the was a transparent circle at the end of my bed slowly moving left to right about 2 inches in size (the transparency looked like when the predator turns on his cloaking on the movie).
one time i felt like i had woke up right after i laid down to sleep and there was a burned or charred corpse sitting up against my door i was scared and new i had to get away from it asap but when i tried to open the door an unseen force knocked me back onto my bed where i did wake up but this was the one and only time i was awake and paralyzed it feel as if my sheet was made of lead.
i had a dream where i wake up in my house with the feeling of evil around and none of the lights work
and its dark but somehow i can see kind of telepathically and in the kitchen was an evil woman standing next to a 7ft tall circle and i try to pray for help but all my words are jumbled and sluggish and then she laughs at me .(i have had this type of dream before where i cant pray and my voice is garbled).
i have a recurring one where it feels like im tied to a cross or just strapped to a board but standing up and paralyzed but there is one or more entities behind me but my head and body feels like it has immense gravity on it and i can barely move.
i have another recurring dream where im pulled down or like all my surroundings are ascending .
i have another recurring dream about snakes are everywhere.
the most recent one i felt as if i was on earth but in medieval time in like Jerusalem or someplace ,but it was also hell and there was Haitian vodoo man that hexed me and i asked him why and he said meet him in the attic of this gothic type church and he would remove it ,but when i got there he was looking out of the window down in the courtyard the was Jesus and he was in a battle with a large like giant skinny Ethiopian 8-10ft tall and was losing and when i turned to run the voodoo guy started chanting a hex but it was in my head not coming out of his mouth. then i saw the large Ethiopian in the attic . then i was transferred to the courtyard and there were demons chasing me into a dead end one was said im here to help you get out take these and jam them up your nose they were long pieces of wood splinters about a foot long he said hurry jam them all before the other demons reach me or i will be stuck here forever so i jammed them.
sometimes im a murderer and have extreme guilt that seems to stay with me after im awake also.
i always remember the dreams but sometimes i dont remember what happen after waking up
not dream related
i saw a small orange glowing ball go over my house one night while i was outside it was about the size of a light bulb and it was shorter than the trees i remember being mesmerized by it but dont remember the rest of that night.
once i heard a woman in my bedroom about a 3 years ago plain as day she just said
'green"
before i was divorced me and my wife were almost asleep and we both heard a voice talk to us we both looked at each other and said did you hear that. she heard "is there a chair" and i heard "is there a sheriff"
i was messing around a few months ago and was trying out my new phone and did an evp in my kitchen
i asked if anyone was there and do they want to talk to my cats and a male voice said "____ you" but not censored.
i am not proud of it but in my current house i used to listen to really evil music and im not talking your typical death metal either im talking about a couple of bands that specifically use demonic names and chants and i wish i could go back and change that ,but i cant and sometimes those chants get stuck in my head and wont go away for days.
My dad says when he lived here he felt his whole bed shake.
I have felt here and in my last home thing press on my bed not like sitting but more like a large dog is walking across the other side of my king size bed that i sleep in alone.
But the strange nightmares and in dream paralysis have plagued me for as long as i can remember.
I have always been different for instance i try to avoid people at all cost im feel like if i leave the house something horrible is going to happen but at home im fine except when i sleep.
i live with my mother now in a large house and i haven't dated or had a partner for 15ish years.
no im not crazy im just not normal and i think something attached to me when i was little and drove me down a bad path and wrecked all normalcy for me ,but recently i feel somewhat empowered like im winning now but have a long way to go.
i did use drugs during my teenage years and i swear with those and meditation i visited places i wasnt supposed to for mere seconds at a time and once im pretty sure i either died or was dying i was in a misty field surrounded by people i couldnt see and there was a light beckoning me to walk towards it and then a friend started to talk to me and i jumped back to life .Some say it was a hallucination but i didnt feel intoxicated at all while i was there and it was peaceful in a way ive never felt.
Whats wrong with me possession,oppression,etc...
Is there anything to help with the nightmares cause i feel that they are more spiritual than just mere imagination
p.s. once in my dream i was being stabbed by a demon and my cat spoke to me and said the demons name was simian ...not really sure how to spell it
Thanks and sorry for such a long read
i have been suffering from severe nightmares and sleep paralysis my whole life almost several times a week.They are intense and seem very long and drawn out. I'm not talking about typical bad dreams i'm talking about horrible dreams that stick with me even after waking up. i am 40 years old and sometimes after these dreams im am scared to go back to sleep or even be in the dark cause i sense something is still around me and this feeling can last hours or days even.
my sleep paralysis isn't waking its in my dream's that im paralyzed .
examples of some dreams:
When i was around 8 was the first nightmare i was be chased by a witch type being and all i could feel was dread i woke up and my hands were missing and the was a transparent circle at the end of my bed slowly moving left to right about 2 inches in size (the transparency looked like when the predator turns on his cloaking on the movie).
one time i felt like i had woke up right after i laid down to sleep and there was a burned or charred corpse sitting up against my door i was scared and new i had to get away from it asap but when i tried to open the door an unseen force knocked me back onto my bed where i did wake up but this was the one and only time i was awake and paralyzed it feel as if my sheet was made of lead.
i had a dream where i wake up in my house with the feeling of evil around and none of the lights work
and its dark but somehow i can see kind of telepathically and in the kitchen was an evil woman standing next to a 7ft tall circle and i try to pray for help but all my words are jumbled and sluggish and then she laughs at me .(i have had this type of dream before where i cant pray and my voice is garbled).
i have a recurring one where it feels like im tied to a cross or just strapped to a board but standing up and paralyzed but there is one or more entities behind me but my head and body feels like it has immense gravity on it and i can barely move.
i have another recurring dream where im pulled down or like all my surroundings are ascending .
i have another recurring dream about snakes are everywhere.
the most recent one i felt as if i was on earth but in medieval time in like Jerusalem or someplace ,but it was also hell and there was Haitian vodoo man that hexed me and i asked him why and he said meet him in the attic of this gothic type church and he would remove it ,but when i got there he was looking out of the window down in the courtyard the was Jesus and he was in a battle with a large like giant skinny Ethiopian 8-10ft tall and was losing and when i turned to run the voodoo guy started chanting a hex but it was in my head not coming out of his mouth. then i saw the large Ethiopian in the attic . then i was transferred to the courtyard and there were demons chasing me into a dead end one was said im here to help you get out take these and jam them up your nose they were long pieces of wood splinters about a foot long he said hurry jam them all before the other demons reach me or i will be stuck here forever so i jammed them.
sometimes im a murderer and have extreme guilt that seems to stay with me after im awake also.
i always remember the dreams but sometimes i dont remember what happen after waking up
not dream related
i saw a small orange glowing ball go over my house one night while i was outside it was about the size of a light bulb and it was shorter than the trees i remember being mesmerized by it but dont remember the rest of that night.
once i heard a woman in my bedroom about a 3 years ago plain as day she just said
'green"
before i was divorced me and my wife were almost asleep and we both heard a voice talk to us we both looked at each other and said did you hear that. she heard "is there a chair" and i heard "is there a sheriff"
i was messing around a few months ago and was trying out my new phone and did an evp in my kitchen
i asked if anyone was there and do they want to talk to my cats and a male voice said "____ you" but not censored.
i am not proud of it but in my current house i used to listen to really evil music and im not talking your typical death metal either im talking about a couple of bands that specifically use demonic names and chants and i wish i could go back and change that ,but i cant and sometimes those chants get stuck in my head and wont go away for days.
My dad says when he lived here he felt his whole bed shake.
I have felt here and in my last home thing press on my bed not like sitting but more like a large dog is walking across the other side of my king size bed that i sleep in alone.
But the strange nightmares and in dream paralysis have plagued me for as long as i can remember.
I have always been different for instance i try to avoid people at all cost im feel like if i leave the house something horrible is going to happen but at home im fine except when i sleep.
i live with my mother now in a large house and i haven't dated or had a partner for 15ish years.
no im not crazy im just not normal and i think something attached to me when i was little and drove me down a bad path and wrecked all normalcy for me ,but recently i feel somewhat empowered like im winning now but have a long way to go.
i did use drugs during my teenage years and i swear with those and meditation i visited places i wasnt supposed to for mere seconds at a time and once im pretty sure i either died or was dying i was in a misty field surrounded by people i couldnt see and there was a light beckoning me to walk towards it and then a friend started to talk to me and i jumped back to life .Some say it was a hallucination but i didnt feel intoxicated at all while i was there and it was peaceful in a way ive never felt.
Whats wrong with me possession,oppression,etc...
Is there anything to help with the nightmares cause i feel that they are more spiritual than just mere imagination
p.s. once in my dream i was being stabbed by a demon and my cat spoke to me and said the demons name was simian ...not really sure how to spell it
Thanks and sorry for such a long read