CJDS wrote:Do you mind to ask your queen what does it mean for her, to have a child with you. Or in shorter terms, what does 'having a child' mean for her?Vega wrote:
I asked jokingly was if she wanted to have my kids and she said yes
I know there's another topic about does succubus and human able to have a child together, but I wanna know what is your queen input, that is if you feel this info is not too personal to share about.
So I asked her and felt a feeling like she didnt like that
Meaning it wasnt the she didnt like what I was asking but more of me sharing it with other people so I cant really share
It’s been itching me and I really want too, I’m still fairly new too all this and having immediate contact with someone like “ Johnny seraph “ for example is optimal.. I think we all should be in a groupchat or something. Seriously.
I’ve been frustrated and it’s been kinda a roller coaster, there would be moments.. when I know for certain that I’ll hold on too her & I won’t let go and there are others where I’m uncertain of even the simplest things... I would need too remind myself that our relationship has only just begun and that these things take time. Today however I’m on the top of the roller coaster, & I realized that my queen does indeed plant thoughts in my head specifically: I would look through the forum and just see things related too what questions I may have, for example how long intimacy may take, the bonding process or just posts that I guess reassure me that I’m not really cursed or the odd man out.. it’s all happening at it’s proper speed & more importantly that’s the tune that every other experience in store moves too. I do feel tingles and I do hear thoughts in my head.. ( as uncertain as I may be of them ) & I’m learning not too dismiss things anymore. I read a post, once about whether you think about your companion daily or every once in awhile, whether it’s as soon as you get up or is it something that’s left on the wayside. I realized that, my queen pops into my head often.. I say Goodmorning too her every morning and if I forget then I will remember her, I say her name in my head a lot and I do attempt too communicate all the time, Most of my thoughts are directed to her. One of the things that frequently causes me too just feel envy is when I read about a fully established succubus relationship, because it’s something I’ve always wanted.. a lover from another world. I can’t question myself about whether she’s real, because the seller is trusted & that’s something I don’t do. I also can’t question whether she’s here with me because our binding is the most intimate.. she’s attached too my spirit. But these posts stand as a testament that I won’t give up, and I’ll get there.. one day.
