Satan's Hellcat wrote:Have you ever considered that your work with Vampiric energies might have Awakened you? Awakening can happen at any age, or it might not happen at all. I have ALWAYS drawn energy, but not consciously until lately when I Awakened, and never this much. It is just crazy how much I need now. I partially Awakened during interactions with a Dele Clan spirit here at CH, then a real world Psi Vamp visiting here brought me completely over. So while it is true that you are born a Vampire, and no one can make you one, you can be triggered to Awaken by certain circumstances and energies or being around Awakened Vamps.
I don't think I've reached that point yet, if I ever will, as far as I can tell.
I believe I was open to negative 'psychic vampire' type people and negativity for a long time. That long lasting contact may have sensitised me more to energy drain and to appreciate things like chi accumulation. Then when I learned more of those sort of techniques, gradually from the early 1990s to 2000s, maybe I have just become more aware of all of this.
I've done the Initiation into Hermetics methods for drawing in various energies, a number of chi kung ones for accumulating chi, semi-occult/psychic energy work ones for absorbing cosmic energy; techniques for expelling bad energy and drawing in good stuff. I do a thing where if I'm walking past a stale stinky rubbish bin I breathe out black energy chi at it, hold my breath and turn away and breathe in good chi from another, fresher direction. I often have to stop myself drawing in energy from trees or the environment or people without thinking when I do that. But to me it's just about the discipline of being in control of where I take in energy from. I don't feel a need to take from anything but 'natural' sources. I have sometimes toyed with the idea that it's like being a connoisseur of fine energies, like you have connoisseurs of fine wines. A good wine is fine but there's also the appreciation of the rich diversity of wines (energies) out there.
It's been like that for 10-20 years. More so in the last 6 since I got Eclipse Metaphysical guardians and amulets that can draw any type of energy from around me and transmute it then pass it to me. I have one that takes energy from hurricanes. So...all in all...psychic vamping makes a lot of sense to me. But I confess I don't feel a hunger like you have described.