I agree. Nobody should be in similar situations like ours. I took two years to save up enough money to move out, which was hard on my relationship with my parents. There were so many rumors and lies going around that I had to cut off communication with my abusers altogether. My relationship with my parents was suffering because of all the gossip and lies coming from them too. Working with one of my abusers made it even harder.jezebela wrote: ↑Thu Nov 17, 2022 2:36 pmthank u for ur kind words. it is indeed horrible, and actually no one should have undergone experiences like ours.
whatever i've been doing is all about survival. whatever methods i've been using to survive no longer effective because i realised they r wrong, maladaptive and dysfunctional, and i'm individuating to my true self. but i'm not allowed to be myself, so i continued to play my fake role in order to maintain peace.
oh wow. i'm speaking in such jargon, and metaphoric. i must be too indulge in this pain....
i have read of wraith before, and how protective they r, but i don't have the courage to have them. so the only ones i have are WA. and yes, this time, i'm gonna task them to help me with protecting my energy from negativities.
i actually have tried asking for wealth to help me get out my current situation, but.... oh well, i'm sure it will take some time. as long as that wish has not been granted, then i have to rely on my own strength also.
year end is coming, so it's time for me to sit down and plan my future, and then send it to my spirit family, and also prayers.
I was drawn to the Wraith listing so many times. I finally bit the bullet and ordered one before the Best Companions reading was finished. So far so good though.
When I told my Wraith about what some people did to me, she became angry for me and caused a massive headache. Lol. I asked her to calm down and not give me a headache instead. I also asked her to promise me that if I could see spirits or anything in the future, she would not appear frightening or grotesque. I think you should be alright!
I haven't tasked my other spirits to help me yet, but my Courtwind Angel and Wraith were given a green light. I asked them to help me exercise justice however they see fit to the people that wronged or abused me without harming innocent people and keep my karma intact, etc.
I feel like the Wraith has made me more intimidating to others, which makes them treat me better than before. I work in a very toxic environment and sometimes people are mean and bitchy, but those people usually walk away for no apparent reason recently. My spirit family is keeping the bad vibes at bay.
I have an overzealous coworker who now gives me food or gives me a ride home often. And it was my Courtwind Angel's doing, which I haven't even asked for
I wish I had known about spirit keeping back then so that I would have had at least somebody to talk to. I remember crying myself to sleep so many nights wearing three jackets and two blankets without AC in the winter because they were stingy about the electricity bill. They just didn't want to use it, not that they couldn't afford it. When I got home from work, I would clean the dishes like a maid. Sometimes I had to wake up early in the morning to finish the dishes when I had not finished them all and still got punished. Those were the days.
I think it helped make me the person I am today, and I'm thankful for that. Although I don't wish anyone else to be in a similar situation, when you find yourself in one, know that it will get better But whatever it is, survival always comes first. It'll take sometime, please hang in there. Your spirits or entities will help you as best they can, even without tasking them to do so. Ask them to help calm your anxiety, or simply tell them that you need support.