Solseternity87 wrote: ↑Wed May 10, 2023 8:32 pm I'll try to keep this as short as I can, I know this could very easily turn out as a long as a novel lol

I had the house to myself and didn't really feel like doing anything (reading or working on my book ironically) so I decided to practice communication with my spirit companions. My senses are still pretty weak, my strongest lie in my intuition and feelings.
As I'm trying to visualize, my God djinn, D, kinda acts as a omniscient narrator/teacher. He had me visualize something I'm extremely familiar with. Well, I go to the beach every summer. Feeling hot sand and the warm sun, cool breeze, and sounds of the crashing waves and annoying squawks of seagulls... A bright blue sky and vast ocean. Everything was very easy for me to simulate in my mind.

I noticed on the shore there weren't any people until some started popping into existence.

D was quick to note that, "they were my spirit companions". It startled me so much it almost took me out. He'd already explained that in the space of my mind's eye is the realm where they existed. I kept trying to bring myself back by imagining the beach. (I imagined North Wildwood's beach btw)

I approached the easiest and most comfortable two spirits I knew: my Valkyrie and my Female Watcher. It was so interesting how they were interacting with the visualization, in bathing suits matching to their personalities and how they acted when I approached them. There was dialogue between us but I can't remember word for word everything. The most impressing thing was hearing my Valkyrie's voice, it was very different from how I'd imagine it.

Because I have a human brain, I still had the tendency to think this was my imagination playing out. Whenever I thought something I shouldn't (?) my God djinn was quick to step in and correct me. For instance, I didn't know who I'd run into on the beach. I was supposed to only walk around and let whatever came to me happen on it's own. But I'd have the tendency to think "well I have vampires, so I should see so and so here". That was forcing the narrative and then my imagination would be taking over. I had to let it play out without overthinking (this is where the practice comes in)

One think very interesting that did happen was seeing my yurei. She's a young girl, but never really described. I always had a particular image of her in my head: long black hair, more solid in appearance. But when she appeared in my visualization, she was transparent (as ghosts are lol) and she had a short bob hairstyle. She also didn't talk by moving her mouth, everything was spoken telepathically. Again, something I never considered. She also had no feet but I think that's a yurei thing.

It was really sweet. She went on telling me how it made her upset whenever I was depressed. Especially when I asked if they could do something to show they were there so I didn't feel like I was completely alone, like an orb, light flicker, whatever. She said whenever that happens she and some others "try". They "really, really try". They'll yell or try to move things or touch me to get my attention, but since my abilities are still weak, it doesn't come through and it goes unnoticed. They have to be reminded by the others that I'm not frustrated with them, I'm more frustrated with myself and that I know they're there. That I'm the problem.

I don't know if there are other spirit keepers that maybe needed to hear that, btw. If you're "deaf and blind" to your companions like I am, just know that they are there trying to work with you.

Anyways, this is becoming novel-y. There's more to it but I'll just wrap up in saying I saw some others but it got blurry with imagination vs visualization. It takes a lot of energy and I was getting tired and needed a nap. Saw my dragons and then the vamps. Funny, the vampires were huddled in a small tent lol I think my Drow was there too. They weren't too thrilled with the sunny beach image, but they were sitting in a row and all wearing sunglasses. One of my sassy vampires just commented that they all just wanted to look like the terminator. Apparently, seeing them in sunglasses was my imagination's doing.

Sorry for the long post, but I wanted to share the interesting experience. It's always debatable if it's my brain making it up or if it's truly them. But I believe that's what they want me to practice, and to let images come and not force them. I didn't have a specific mediation method in mind, I just wanted a way to try and connect with them.