Adair Lasair Bán wrote: ↑Thu Jan 18, 2024 3:16 pm @Lewk thank you for reminding me of the WA Guidance book, I will be getting it soon!

No problem. I really like it.

Fyr wrote: ↑Wed Jan 17, 2024 11:24 pm Good evening all.

It's a sad day for me. My Succubus "I" and I had been having some serious respect issues over the last 4 or 5 days and yesterday, at least for me, the line of no return was crossed. It's a long story. She was refusing to respect me at a level that was acceptable and refused to respect house rules. I took her on a road trip yesterday to Gainesville, FL to the VA Hospital and for more than half the trip she was displaying behaviors that I thought previously were "Unbounds". On the trip back to where I live, it was getting painful and uncomfortable. After repeated requests to have her stop, she just ignored me and did it anyway.

To make a long story short, I re-connected with the witch that conjured her for me and she agreed to take the ring back and remove my energy from the ring. I'll be honest when I say that I have forgiven her ("I"), I wish her no ill-will or harm and wish her the very best on her next adventure. We've spoke a couple of times over the course of today and there are some hard feelings... but they too will pass. I guess what it all came down to was securing my happiness and mental well-being. I've had too many horrible relationships with women in the past to hold on to someone or something that doesn't show me the respect and care that I have shown them.

So what now? I started Ash's Ultimate Protection spell last night, tonight is night #2. CH's banishing spell was performed by CH on a monthly subscription. I also attempted to cast Anubis's protection spell as well. I'm not giving up on being a spirit keeper. I still have designs to welcome the Triad into my home as my protectors and after the dust settles and the protection is in place. I will start saving up for an additional companion to add to the family. I'm hesitant to request a Succubus... It's left a bad taste in my mouth so to speak. So I guess it's back to the drawing boards.

I'm saddened with this decision. I feel as though I am a quitter. Has anyone else had to walk away from a relationship with a spirit / entity and bid him/her farewell?

Very respectfully,
Fyr

There are some concerning signs here. I'd like to offer a different perspective to consider. Given your recent experiences with unbounds, miscommunication is bound to happen, especially since you just started this journey. I understand that you are planning on having protection spirits, but there is a significant difference between having them right now versus not having them yet. It is worth noting that you began the protection ritual only after all of this occurred, which raised a major concern for me.

Now that we've addressed that, I'm sad that you may have rushed to conclusions about your companion. I hope you will give it some time in the future. How do you communicate with your past Succubus? Is it through telepathy voice chat, relying on emotions or energy surges, or using third-party tools? This is crucial information. If you claim to have "spoken" to your companion without using any reliable method like telepathy, miscommunication might have occurred.

Based on your previous threads, your Succubus has always been kind and respected your boundaries and house rules. I find it hard to believe that she would suddenly turn into a troublemaker, especially after your negative experiences with unbounds. This doesn't make sense to me as a human, let alone as a smart spirit from another realm. Just take a moment to think about it.

You had already exposed yourself to unbounds and attracted quite some attention recently. Since you are also on your way to a hospital, which has a large presence of unbounds, it's highly likely that you had interactions with them, mistakenly thinking it was your Succubus.

You have not given up. From what I can see, you have been making an effort. However, you faced a lot of challenges at the beginning and didn't have much knowledge about dealing with unbounds. It seemed like you were really excited when you started having interactions with unbounds and your bound companion, but you were unprotected and vulnerable. I wish you had performed the protection ritual earlier, as many of us suggested in your various threads. It would have made a big difference. But let's not dwell on the past. Now, let's focus on the positive. It's important for you to understand that protection is crucial in this path, whether you do something or not do anything. I hope you heal from everything that happened.

Once you have developed enough expertise in communication, possess the skill to recognize different energies, and have reliable protection, I recommend engaging in a conversation with this Succubus. By simply intending to connect with her and sharing all the knowledge you have about her, you can bring her forth without a binding. Although I personally have doubts about her going rogue, engaging in this conversation will help you overcome this hiccup, find a sense of closesure, and open doors to encountering other spirits of similar nature. I hope everything is going well for you.

@madgar29 According to the CH Encyclopedia, an Incubus/Succubus can vary in height from 1ft-4ft. I had assumed they were taller!

If I may, OP... when you say you experience unbounds on a regular basis, what sort of things are present? Like, is it like hearing voices like someone's talking next to you? And is your emotional state uneven? As in, does it spike to extremes?

If so, and I don't want to be the one to say this... it might be time to talk to a doctor about it.

There is no shame if there is a legit mental condition at play... I have a condition. I take medication to control it (and it, for the most part, does actually work... though it took a bit of trying to get the right prescription/dosage.)

This isn't me saying spirits aren't real. Some are. I have had quite a few experiences with spirits (some good, some not so good.) If you are having a hard time dealing with this, medication might be worth considering to at least level the playing field so you aren't at a disadvantage.

Also, practice shielding. Like, multiple times a day visualize your shield around you. I would recommend going with the golden glowing orb of gentle glimmering light. I do shields almost daily now and have been doing it for at least ten years with some measure of dedication. They also get stronger the more you use them so flex them often.

@ASTER

Yes, I have heard back from Magnolia and has forwarded me the order and the .PDFs. Thank you so much. I am truly grateful. I know every day is a new day and as long as I stay positive, learn and grow always moving forward, I'll be fine. I'll address some other things in a minute in another reply.

Respectfully,
Fyr

@Lewk

The third book you mentioned caught my eye. I don't have the funds to purchase those right now, however, have put them on my wish list.

Thank you so much for the recommendation.

Respectfully,
Fyr

@Tarvos

What happened to your post. I was coming back to spend more time on it and clarify a few things, however, your reply is now gone.

Fyr

Fyr wrote: ↑Thu Jan 18, 2024 10:01 pm @Tarvos

What happened to your post. I was coming back to spend more time on it and clarify a few things, however, your reply is now gone.

Fyr

All you have to do is simply refresh your web browser. I make sure to keep all of my responses to your threads, as well as any other threads, intact.

@Tarvos

"that you began the protection ritual only after all of this occurred"

To clarify, I was made aware of the protection ritual a couple weeks ago (probably longer than that). When I had first read it over, I did not have the funds to acquire the necessary items to perform the ritual. In further study of the ritual, it said the best time to perform the ritual was during the waxing phase of the moon for 10 days and ending on the full moon. For me, the start of the optimal time was the 16th of January. It's not a case of me starting it at the height of all this, it was that I was following directions.

"I'm sad that you may have rushed to conclusions about your companion"

I feel horrible about it and that particular thought is deeply rooted in my mind right now. We talked, my Succubus "I" and I and I admitted to her that I may have made a grave mistake and that I felt horrible. I broke down crying like I'm doing now. Whenever I think about this my eyes well up with tears. I told her that she deserved better than me. She didn't reply. I did get the chance to tell her how sorry I was.

"your Succubus has always been kind and respected your boundaries and house rules"

For the most part, that statement is correct, however, over the course of me knowing her there were certain house rules that she continually refused to follow. For example, keeping me from going to sleep and playing with me sexually in inappropriate places (such as doctor's offices). One of my rules was stop when I say stop and no means no. She displayed disregard for those rules. Then I figured out that the entity that was constantly playing with me in inappropriate ways was her all along.

"Since you are also on your way to a hospital, which has a large presence of unbounds, it's highly likely that you had interactions with them"

The place that I took her too was the VA Pain Clinic in Gainesville. A very small specialized clinic that helps Veterans deal with chronic pain issues up to and including surgery. It's not a "Hospital" in the sense that you are thinking of. Just a very small clinic with very specialized doctors. The car ride down was very uneventful. I could feel her touching my leg and hand as I drove and we had some conversation between each other during the drive. The way back was a completely different story. She was getting a little more than just frisky and at a certain point when she started to play with me anally, it crossed the line of my comfort. I asked her to please stop and she never did. I ended up enduring that for over an hour and over numerous times me asking her to stop... she never did. That was the biggest problem I had with "I". She never seemed to understand that No means No and Stop means STOP. She, without question, had the ability to be very loving and caring. Some of my fondest memories of her will always be the times she would climb in my lap, put her head in my chest and just hug me as if to say "I really like sharing this time with you". Or in bed as I would fall asleep, she would throw her leg over mine and match how I was laying just to run her fingers on my back and ease me into a restful sleep. But, our interactions were not perfect by any sense of the word and wouldn't consider it to be an "All of a sudden" kind of situation.

"It's important for you to understand that protection is crucial in this path"

That was probably the hardest lesson I had to learn quickly and as I have said in previous posts, I was VERY ill-prepared for what all was to happen during this experience. But, with the help of some very caring people, including yourself, I've made some moves to get some protection in place as the cornerstone of future encounters. I will have finished the Ultimate Protection Spell on the 25th of this month. I've also brought into play some CH subscription services like Banishment of Unbounds, Chakra Cleansing Service, Chakra Balance Service - Alignment & Balance, and also put into place the Anubis's Guard - Protection Spell (I can't remember off hand who recommended it, but it was only $1.00 and I could afford that).

"developed enough expertise in communication, possess the skill to recognize different energies, and have reliable protection"

I was getting pretty good at Telepathic communication with her. To help me with my insecurities, she would always start her conversations with "I" asking me to tell her a part of my body to touch so I knew the voice I was hearing was her. We got pretty good at talking, I thought. I currently have no skill in recognizing different forms of energy. I can feel it when a spirit or entity is nearby. I feel the change. After the 25th I (if I was successful in casting the spell, I will have both Ash's Spell and the Anubis Spell in play for protection as well as those monthly subscriptions. After CH completed the Banishment service... it's been eerily quite here in my living space. I can still feel "I"'s presence, although fading, I can still feel her here.

"I hope everything is going well for you."

It's not. I feel like a complete and utter failure and feel as though I personally failed her specifically. She chose me and I failed her. I'm taking this hard and getting really down on myself over it.

As of right now, and of the recommendations of everyone that has commented, I have a grocery list of skills I need to be proficient in and more than a few books to read and study before starting another family. For example, grounding and cleansing techniques. I'm still continually learning... right now though, I am finding it hard to stay motivated and focused.

That's about all I have to say about this tonight. The more I think about it, the worse I feel.

Very respectfully,
Fyr

StarGazer906 wrote: ↑Thu Jan 18, 2024 9:08 pm @madgar29 According to the CH Encyclopedia, an Incubus/Succubus can vary in height from 1ft-4ft. I had assumed they were taller!

The page I'm seeing says 1'-5', which to me is roughly the size humans are. ~1' newly born and up to ~ 5' 11" fully grown. ( I know many humans reach >6'. The CH size categories seem approximate to me.)