richard t wrote:hello,
i'm new here. and i write this as a confession of sorts. not out of guilt. but to tell my story. you see i've been involved in a relationship with a succubus since i was a teenager. this succubus whom i refer to as Meek. has been with me for a long time. and we have had on and off again relationships in the past. only recently i had purchased a book entitled Sexual Alchemy by Donald tyson was i able to bond with her with her completely. through her i came to know other succubi. and their queen: Lilith. whatever this be the Lilith of legend i don't know. however i had learned from some books including the forementioned book. the succubi are called the Lilim or Lilioth. and are refered to as the daughters of Lilith. (there are sons as well).
through my succubus i had met other spirits. some hostile to humanity. some are not. because of this. i became interested in djinn as well. (my succubus has told me she had traveled throughout the middle east. from india to north africa/ egypt). and started to ( help me )collect marid djinneyeh.
my relationship to my succubus has grown strong now. i can feel her body. and caress it. however most of the time she remains invisible. and when i do see her in my mind. she takes the form of a beautiful woman of the middle east with yellow green eyes to dark eyes. her skin white with a bluish hue. or dark as if she was in the desert. she only once took an actual physical form. but as an apparition of a woman with black eyes. that is her eyes were blacked out. however despite this form. i felt compassion as well as a deep longing when i looked into them.

richard t wrote:it's hard to remember. she has been with me for so long. but i think it started back in 1980 when i had sexually charge dreams. always involving a woman from the middle east however she has taken the form of a woman of european descent either with blonde hair or brown. in the dreams we had sex. and from that time and onward she would come to me in my dreams. and laid next to me when i was awake. as noted it was after i got the book and used the rituals in it that she manifested herself to me physically.
after the ritual i can touch her. although she remains invisible i can touch her physically. it is how to describe the sensations when you touch her. she is there. you feel static electricity. it is solid. but not as physical as we are. she had once took the form of an apparition. but it was a small woman under three feet. with blacked out eyes. when she was in that manifestation. sex was fantastic! she even smiled at me when she was done. hope i'm not being too graphic. but she is wonderful. she lead me into studying shamanism and collecting spirits especially djinn. (as noted). again sorry for being graphic and rambling! but i can't help it. :oops: