I am so glad you made this post as this does explain a lot!!!! You have had a lot going on with you and I really do feel for you sir!!!! The black mole thing is something that I hope you can overcome to where maybe you can have some of a normal life, and I do hope the doctors will help you with this problem!!!onenuttyguyhere wrote:OMG, I know you all mean well but I swear (not literally) that some of you either put words in my mouth or put things there that was not in print. If you read my last post carefully, I clearly stated that I have tried looking for jobs and I guess I should have also said that I have also gone on quite a few interviews and not got a job that was fit for me. YES YES YES I have made effort towards my wishes! I think I also said that and it seems like some of you are just totally over looking that cause you are so focused on the fact that I must be doing something wrong and not the djinn cause God forbid, the djinn can't mess up!
I do feel that in this case it's probably more than likely NOT my djinn. Someone also said that I "blamed" my djinn for my problems. I never BLAMED them for anything. I said that my wishes were not granted and these are wishes that I put effort into. I'm not some dummy that just makes wishes and sits there and waits for the magick to happen. My gosh people - give me a little credit here. I also don't DEMAND them to do anything. Where are some of you getting this information from? I did NOT say that. I speak very kindly to my djinn and I do state that "I wish for..." but I never say "You need to do this... I want that... you better this..." Some of you are reading something that I am not typing.
It may be something as simple as what Lisa said and that is that I have blockages preventing money from coming into my life. I think she said it's emotional because I have been let down by people that I thought would always be there for me so I hurt alot because of it. Please don't just say ... "you need to let that go and blah blah blah..." Trust me, it's easier said than done when you've been treated as bad as I have and I am gay and my ex lover literally stomped me under the ground and emotionally abused me at a time he knew I wasn't able to just walk out because I had severe black mold poisening and the doc said that because of the length of exposure, this fungus may always be inside of me. The fungus has literally "made residence" in my upper respiratory system. It's aweful! If it doesn't sound so bad to you, then that's your opinion but I live it daily and I wish to God I could do the work I used to do but I can't because it's severe! Everything they've given me has either not worked or worked temporarily. Then on top of that my ex of 10 years left me and changed ALL of his contact info with a warning! I am majorly depressed and in that depression I have had many moments of thinking it's going to get better and "something's gonna eventually break through for me..."
I do NOT expect my djinn to do all the work but I expect to see "something." I'm beginning to wonder why am I posting this here cause seems like no one understands. Most are so bent on telling you how wrong you are rather than empathizing. When you are really down you need to be told the right thing to do and how what you are doing is wrong but you ALSO need people to empathize with you and not be so rough! Yes- I am a very sensitive person. No way! Right? lol
Anyways- I was going to pick up a mailer envelope almost an hour ago to send my spirits back to Lisa and they had all the envelopes EXCEPT the kind I was looking for! I was like "ok... I think they are telling me that I should not do this..."
As for your ex, shame on him for doing that to you, but it may have been the best for you that he did leave, since he wasn't willing to be there when you needed him the most!!!! However he may not have wanted to see you so sick as well, but still leaving wasn't the best idea!!!
I do believe that your spirits will help you and they are really trying to get you to see that, I know it can be so hard to learn how to trust again, when you have been stepped on by others!!!! I believe too that your spirits are trying to do what will be best for you in the long run, and since trusting can be a big blockage, it is something that you will have to work through!!!!
I think by posting what you did is a first step and I take my hat off to you for doing that, you have shown courage in doing that!!!! Please hang in there sir, and I wouldn't be a bit surprised to see some good things coming your way!!!!
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