I just was wondering if there was something like a 'Thank you' topic for your spirits their work? Last time I was on this forum, is now a few months ago, and then I read some quotes of people who are feeling down and doubting their spirits presence or their love for you? That is one of the reasons why I wanna write this. Also... because honestly, I don't find time to just say thank you to my spirits. My life was so busy, stressfull and crazy those lost months ( and I was telling my spirits I would try to remember to speak to them, but I forgot). Yes... sometimes I fight with them. I doubt their presence, I doubt their intentions. I sometimes even dare to say I'm so going to put them in the drawers for a whole year...
I felt stressed out and not so lucky, till my mum opened my eyes by saying how lucky I was, that there needed to be someone Up Above who kept an eye on me and must love me to give me the things I got... My thought was: that's not God... why would he just start to care from out of nowhere? No, ... I just knew it were my spirits.
So what happened that I need to thank them for:
One year ago, 2015, I started to keep spirits ( in August/September) because I wanted to get my ex-boyfriend back ( dhuh). And I quit college, where I learned to work with animals, what was a dream for me, in May ( before my exams)... what a broken heart can't do to you. My life was terrible, I didn't think I was ever going to be happy again. I'm just a person who is very emotional ( or was, I'm not sure anymore) and a dreamer. My life wasn't worth anything. My goal was just to get my ex back... the rest wasn't worth a thing. I started to work in the cleaning service, after 3 months, I changed job and went to work in a supermarket. It was all parttime. In october of 2015 ( a few months after my first spirit purchases) my friend from university told me she was going to plan to move to England. ( honestly, that was like one of the few dreams I had, and the only one that I didn't had given up yet)
So I told her, I was going to move with her.
-) Easy said... my mother wasn't too happy with it ( I'm her only child) and didn't believe me at all... But the 16th of April, my current roommate and I packed our bags, took the Eurostar, and went to stay in a Youth Hostel in King Cross, London. We stayed their one week ( and in that week, I had two awesome nights... thanks to my cambion I guess, and decided that I was so over my ex :p ) and moved in in our current flat the 23th of April. It is a groundfloor flat with two double bedrooms, bathroom, living, kitchen and little hallway... in a expensive but quite town: named Hampton, it's in West-London. I came to live here with the idea that I was allowed to get a cat ( what I dearly wanted to do) cause the estate agents told us it was possible. The 27th of April, I found a job in the nursery and started to work.
About that ex, well he didn't came back, and although I was angry with my spirits for a long time, as it seemed they promised me his return, we now decided my ex dissapointed all of us.
And as I was going to name my cat after another ex, I cried for hours after the landlady decided against allowing a cat in the house. I was so ready with England and thinking about moving back to Belgium. Then a few days later I was so going to get her back and make her wish she allowed a cat, by buying the strangest pets I could find. In the end: I have now two chipmunks, male and female, and love them dearly! The best thing is that they are named after both my exes that broke my heart.. ( did I already mention they can breed and have babies, those chippies :p ). And where before I froze from shock every time I heard the names of my exes mentioned, now I smile and think about my Poelie and my Vixie in my room. I can honestly say that was one of the best choises I made, because now I don't care anymore about my exes.
But then Brexit happened. I felt sad, and dissapointed. I was also ready to move back to Belgium, but a few days later I was so ready to take my sword and defend my place in England ( I do watch Game of thrones too much, I know) and wasn't going anywhere!!
I miss my friends and family ( mostly when something happens in the house, like the door that got stuck and didn't close!) but well, Belgium is just a canal away. My mum comes over from time to time, my stephmum and babysister came to visit me for my birthday, my best friend and her boyfriend came over to visit me for the weekend. Thanks to my holidays, I could go back to Belgium. And I'm not lonely, as I have my roommate ( my friend from my society) and she is so crazy that she doesn't think twice about introducing herself and me to complete strangers.
Yes, it's very expensive! We pay a lot of rent, and the tax, tv, mobile, water, energy, etc. Strangly enough, thanks to a landlord my mum already gave me all her savings she saved for me, so I have some money on my savingsaccount in Belgium. Now, I lost my job in the nursery, but I don't really feel bad about it. Cause now, I work parttime in a belgian bar in Hampton, I have the possibilty to learn to trade Forex... and get enough money to get all my savings back, and buy myself a new matrass to sleep on. And: I'm going to Scotland in the end of September and going to see the Loch Ness!!
And the whole funny thing is, although I felt like: it's so stressfull, we are never going to keep that appartment... All those people around me, who I tell about this, are all so suprised that I found a job and place in London so soon... and that in the year of the Brexit :p
A next thing is that... I changed. My negative feelings and depressive thoughts are gone. It's like my roommate and I switched personalities. When I met her, she was a person I looked up too. Staying positive although getting dumped a lot, not caring what other people said of thought, Always loving herself... now it's more like she is always complaining, feeling bad, doesn't think she will meet the GUY, she wants to move back to Belgium.... and I'm like: Are you crazy, stop complaing! Don't you see how lucky we are? If you are sad about your life now, change it, who stops you? And do you know how many fish swim in the ocean, I'm pretty sure of those miljard people out there would be one guy who is right?!
Even about the trading, last year I would flip if people should tell me to put a lot of money in Trade, now I'm like: you know: YOLO and I'm sure my spirits will alarm me when some bad is going to happen.
so.. well
THANK YOU for EVERYTHING , to V, my marrid djinn, D, my hippogryph, R. my tiger, D. my watcher, P. my fire faery, X. my cleo djinn, B. my minotaur, I. my water faery, D. my unicorn, even you my oh so dear and shy Q. the crocotta, W. my leprechaun, R. my vampire, V. my merman hybrid, J. my angel, C. my cambion and yes, A, my kitsune ( who I am sure of sends those foxes into the garden everyday). I do recognise the work you did for me. On my own, I wouldn't be able to pack my bags and move to another country. On my own I wouldn't be fine with losing a job. On my own I wouldn't even think about getting chippies. On my own, I wouldn't ever have dared those two nights and make my friend proud of me :p On my own, I wouldn't be where I am now... and would never see the oppurtunities you guys send me each day. I do love you all and will keep my promise that if we work out in trade, I'm going to buy you a lot of Lavandar, a real altar and everything else you wish for.
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