Just an update. Out of paranoia my parent made us move, forced the workers and me to do everything in 12 hours.

As far as goes there was something different about the previous home energy wise. I’m not sure how to say it but it felt like the physical manifestation of a ‘comfort zone’ or where you could live and feel almost invincible to entropy.

She renovated it to be as perfect as possible, to have bright walls, floors, squeaky clean in all corners and have white/gold tones adorning the wardrobe areas.

Here in the new home where there is more ‘entropy’ or imperfection I feel less invincible but more grounded and able to feel my surroundings.

Any idea what happened?

But basically it was designed to feel like a ‘own very special palace’ cut off from ‘the world’.

It's possible that a more natural balance of order and chaos makes something as earthy as grounding a bit easier.