I had a dream that I was living in this tree house home structure, and a friend was pressuring me about having wings. In order to get wings, I had to be bitten by a large werewolf. At first he tried to bite my leg but that didn't work because his teeth couldn't puncture the akin there, so he went for my shoulder and...that most definitely worked. It was a mix of pleasure and pain that's very difficult to describe, but by the end of it he was very pleased with the opportunity. He told me that they'd show up in the next life, and that people love them. I'm not sure what that meant, but I went along with it anyway.

Later I explored the house layout, and saw a spider fighting a fox in a cage. There were Ringtails in there as well. I went downstairs to see a family playing catch with a football, and went up a tower to learn about a girl's choice of abilities in that life. She had mutations in her legs that let her walk up walls and bend her knees backwards which was really cool.

After that I went out to dinner with my SO's. I met two characters (one girl and one yakuza) from a show i enjoy, and they sat down to eat with us. I was in two places at once, as I was apparently both a character from the show, and myself. They talked a lot to another individual, and I as the character seemed very agitated. The girl played it off as if she were innocent but I called her on her BS quickly. She turned to me and smirked menacingly before trying to force feed another individual. I warned her that if she got close to me I'd "shove my fork up her nose so far that it'd be sticking out the back of her head."

Clearly I had some aggression i needed to work out in that dream, because the Yakuza threatened me and I wasn't even phased. The girl got up, took most of her heavier clothing off, and gave a gesture that was more or less an invitation to fight her. I looked over at my dining guests excitedly before jumping up and engaging.

It's clear to me at this point that more of the character's personality was in me than expected since I'm not usually an aggressive person.

She tried to evade me for awhile, but I picked up a chair and managed to stun her with one clean hit - giving her a nose bleed in the process. Afterwards I grabbed her by the head and slammed her into the ground. I went back to the table, the Yakuza was gone, and in the characters places was my SO. It was as if I'd switched dimensions because apparently I never left and we'd all been eating - though someone left to use the bathroom.

There were oreos on the table. One normal, one pink and white. The pink and white type was called queer, which made me amused. I went over to my SO and we decided we'd be leaving soon.

Back at the tree house there were two groups of people and two houses. One was pristine, and the other needed a lot of TLC. There was a bitter rivalry between the two houses- much like a teen drama movie - and it was around that time I woke up from the various oddities I got to see and experience.

This one might be cheating since it's less a dream and more a half-awake daydreaming sort of hypnotic state or...something. I'll share it anyway since I thought it was cool enough to be included.

I have really bad light sensitivity and since I work online and wind up staring at my screen 8+ hours a day I tend to have nights where I can get very sick. Tonight was one of those nights. I wound up taking a break and as I laid around half-dead and wanting to vomit, my friends visited me in an open field setting. K (a Zanja) was making a flower crown, while my Desire Demon friend was rubbing my back supportively, explaining to the others why I was sick.

My dragon friend R huffed and stood guard over the area, more or less annoyed that he couldn't do much, while E (an Empusa) decided that the best way to get rid of my nausea and pain would be to overload the senses. A and her half-heartedly argued over that as a solution while a daughter of Satan arrived and made a mild threat to my SO whom she believed to be the culprit of my stress - and stress headache, - to which I responded strongly to. She didn't quite like that and left. I knew she was expressing compassion in her own way, but her and I share the trait of being territorial so we can get on each others nerves from time to time and I was feeling too ill to really bother arguing over semantics.

In the hypnotic state I actually wound up throwing up, and I was carried by A to a bath, and later to a River where I was cleaned off. The river was more useful, according to her, as it had healing properties and less flourescent lighting. Later, E won the "argument" earlier and thirty minutes later I was feeling much less pressure in my skull. I was pretty much coddled like a child the entire time, which to be honest, given how ick I felt I welcomed it. Afterwards the buzzing of my phone made me realize that I still had an actual job to get back to so I thanked them out loud and sat up, feeling much better.

What was pain that made it hard to even look at anything and a nausea that made me want to empty my insides is now a dull ache and a mild burning sensation. So whatever was done, be it mental trickery or an actual visitation...it helped, and I'm thankful for it. <3

I haven't been writing my dreams down as often, mostly due to work exhaustion. As a result my dream recall has been slipping. I'll be going back to step one for awhile, writing whatever I remember be it a day or a week ago. If only to get something out. Apologies since these won't be as detailed or event-filled.

--- Dream Snippets ---

• (1/18/2021) I was in my bedroom with an Ex. They said that they lost their license, stating they were feeling too lazy to deal with it years ago. This made me annoyed since I couldn't drive yet, but it also motivated me to get my license. This was likely due to my stress over driving irl.

• (1/18/2021) I was talking with a roommate about Falling in Reverse [the band], and how they felt I played music too loudly, or used it to communicate in ways that made them uncomfortable.

• (1/17/2021) Someone was pointing a gun at me, but I have forgotten the reasons why.

I was visited by H (a Dionysus Protective Master) in a dream last night. He spent time with me while I had panic attacks and blamed him for things, and patiently waited for me to recognize that, for starters - this was indeed a dream and, He wasn't there to hurt me.

I've been feeling unsafe in my own home due to paranoia and I'll usually have some pretty bad nightmares, especially focusing on people trying to take advantage of me, and while H did act with a sense of entitlement or ownership he also acted with patience and love. There were points in the dream that I began to change the world around me due to paranoia and fear (ex. He was holding up a gift or a phone and I thought it was a dart gun and flew away).

He followed and explained what it was, apologized for taking me to a place I didn't know (it was a very cool castle in the middle of nowhere), and explained that he wasn't looking for anything I wasn't ready for. He just wanted to provide escape and comfort from the normal day to day stress.

Looking back at snippets of the dream I remember, I can't quite say that I know with 100% certainty if it was H. Maybe 95%, but this isn't because the energy or appearance didn't match but more because of how genuinely confused and afraid I was in the dream. Not even of him in most cases but of the situations in general that I'd be finding myself in.

I've been spending more time thinking of my spirit companions lately; creating collages, playlists, designing a large customized group offering spell jar for them along with smaller personalized ones for each companion...these could be reasons I was visited before I was mentally ready for it, or it could be general dreams without visitation, not that I'm upset or want it to end. Just goes to show you that what we want isn't always what we need.

Hopefully I'll be able to go back to the Castle later.

Muse wrote: ↑Wed Jan 27, 2021 9:51 pm I thought it was a dart gun and flew away.

This also struck me as interesting since it seems that my dreams have some sort of a subconscious continuity. I had struggles flying in dreams as a kid and eventually just stopped trying. After the dream weeks ago with the werewolf, I was able to fly by simply wanting to. Almost like muscle memory.

Bonus: Pretty sure I had Serpahim wings since I was able to move smaller ones near my eyes. It was pretty awesome!

Last night's were a bit weird. I spent time in the woods, and I was a teen hanging around with a bunch of other teens while trying to avoid some sort of rival group. We lived in an abandoned school building with a bunch of dysfunctional busses. The ground was littered with broken equipment and explosives but we knew enough about the land to avoid them. That is, until the rival group came. They were purposefully triggering the explosives by pushing the busses into them. I ran out and drove one of the busses with some of the kids away and closer to our building but accidentally parked too close to one of the mines. Most of the kids were able to jump out without incident, but one of the smaller ones wasn't so lucky. I panicked and tried to reverse time to prevent the incident, but she reappeared with minor scrapes and bruises, telling me that I didn't need to worry. I'm being vague but it was actually a really gruesome sight.

The dream moved on to focus on an old school. I was avoiding almost everyone including my own parents, and whenever I did run into anyone I had an excuse ready to leave them quickly before anything bad happened. While being forced to spend time with a parental figure I was taken to a ranch with a blind horse. I was told that I was supposed to spend time with him at least two times a week, and that he could be violent - but only because he couldn't see, and it frustrated him easily. The parental figure spoke up, saying that "His name was always-" but I cut her off, calling him something based on a rock band. The horse commented, "Like led zeplin?" and I assured him that he was correct, and that there was nothing wrong paying omage to the classics. He seemed to appreciate the choice.

We spent a lot of time talking near him, and days seemed to blur. I'd watch him run in the field, or lay with him in the grass. There was an incident while cleaning his gear, where I was hit above the temple by accident because he was trying to "feel" or "see" what I was doing. I was huddled in the corner of the stable waiting for the pain to pass when another student came over and pulled me away, saying I needed medical attention. I tried to pass it off as nothing but she wasn't buying it.

It must have been awhile since I'd returned because the horse was angry and wanted little to do with anyone. I brought him carrots to try and calm him down, and it worked so long as everyone else stayed away. He apologized for hurting me, and said that he had fun, and would be leaving soon. I asked him if he could stay longer but he didn't answer. He said that the purpose of the dream was to just spend time together beforehand.

I was sad, and the dream ended around there.

I was living in an old town, apparently missing a friend. Though that friend had already stopped speaking with me, I still sent her letters about the area. The roads were old brick style roads and there was an aquarium not far away from the town center. It had a strange, large sewer cap that was a bronze or dirty gold color - and that had intricate writing on it. I remember wanting to go inside, but didn't want to get caught or in trouble. There was also a creepy statue of three woman standing and staring at a wall, looking down slightly, as if sad or angry. I decided not to go near it.

I spent a lot of time with people who seemed like they either did a lot of drugs, or were under the influence of some force. Possibly the town's? I went with them to a party and found myself trapped inside with them. Everyone was given a role to fulfill, and it wasn't too terrible since if you wanted something you could just imagine it and it would show up. It was a little odd though since everyone was mostly naked save for accessories. I was in a royal position, and I was given a very large soft robe that was ted with white trimmings. I played with the sleeves a lot.

At some point a resident of the area found a way to cheat the system and get people out, by disguising half of the residents as slaves owned by the other half. I was given a harness that I disliked, but it did work and we were escorted out and into a movie theater. There were two lines; one for safe viewing, and one for...other things. I'm beginning to think this group was just a bunch of sex addicts. Violent sex addicts at that.

After escape, there wasn't an authority system to keep people in line. If you did something that they didn't like they'd threaten you. The person I was with decided he wanted space for his legs, so he moved one of the chairs and tossed it at them. They, Understandably, weren't too happy about that. There was a bit of verbal back and forth before they pulled out guns, and we were on the move yet again. I'm not sure when, but a woman joined us. Whenever I try to think of her my brain gets cloudy.

We stole a van, but had difficulty getting into it because they kept shooting at us. I had my guy friend shield us as we got in - he was a wall of a man, - and then he began driving out to so undisclosed location. She was in the very back seat with me, and I was pretty much done with everyone's @&$^. She tried to play games with me, but I very bluntly told her that if she touched me or my phone again I'd hit her, and that got the message across just fine.

I felt bad, but in the dream I was just really tired. I still lacked proper clothing, and we had just been shot at. I think I just needed some time to breathe. Still, I don't remember much after that. I woke up to an alarm relatively soon. Overall it was an interesting dream. I don't often dream about locations. It's usually the people my dreams focus on.

It started with a trance, and it must have lasted for at least twenty minutes. The room was dark and cool and I was very relaxed. My Desire Demon came to mind, and I welcomed the thought easily.

Often when I am in what I perceive vulnerable states of consciousness I naturally go to or think of her, so A being there made sense to me. However, this is the first time I believe I've sensed energy and mentally seen versus seeing a shadow or experiencing an out of body sort of manifestation.

We experimented with mild Shapeshifting, likely because I was curious about it and thought about it earlier when I was asleep. For awhile we just enjoyed each others company really. It's only now, after the fact, that I'm beginning to question whether it was A or someone else who hasn't actually been announced to have been bound yet. I think it was A, it felt like A, and I've been around A for quite a while so her energy is very familiar to me. It's just odd. I dislike doubt.

I'll have to ask her with tarot or something later.
Get a clearer image of the circumstances.

After that mildly conscious experience I became more aware of my surroundings and had to find ways to enter the trance again. Instead I wound up falling asleep entirely. I dreamt that I was apart of a Dnd Game, but I was in the Dnd universe, and we were experiencing combat with...changelings? I believe.

It later shifted to me exploring a dangerous part of the city i live in, being in the backseat of an Uber driver, and one of my two roommates being unable to afford it. This escalates into a later scene where my roommate stated she couldn't afford bills. I've been stressed financially, not because I can't afford things (luckily) but because a lot of house related stress tends to be on me. So it likely just carried over in the dream.

This is further exemplified by the fact that I lose them in the city, and then have to look for children who I brought with me while I was going to pick up a dress for someone seven hours out of town as a work related venture. The children tried to take very expensive art and I had to return it for them and convince the owners that they hadn't meant to, but we joked around like friends, the scene was surprisingly laid back for what was at least a couple thousand in art theft.

Afterwards I was in a Discord call with Dnd friends and we were just joking around and laughing. One person was telling me that they weren't sure if I should join a campaign since I work a lot and it's not on a weekend. A newer member misconstrued how I explained the veteran players worries and it caused a lot of laughter and joking to take place.

That was where the dream ended.
It was a pretty good two hour nap all in all.

Muse wrote: ↑Sat Feb 13, 2021 4:58 am Afterwards I was in a ***NO REDIRECTS ALLOWED*** call with Dnd friends and...

Whoops! I was so focused on writing down details I forget. Then again it was less a redirect and more of a..."this happened" thing. Ah well.

• I was in apart of the black lagoon Universe (the anime/manga) and I went inside a car as a way to meet a crime boss somewhere. Revy was on a motorcycle behind me.

• The car had grey leather seats, and it's driver was associated with drugs. He offered me a sticky white powder in the shape of a joint but I declined. His wife took it instead.

• There was a Flashback to us meeting by the river. They convinced us to at first go in the same car. Revy and the driver spoke a language I didn't understand. I said as much. She only smiled warmly at me. A heavy contrast to previous agitation

• The driver admitted to being a kidnapper and using me as bait. I could see Revy signaling for something but at the time I couldn't know what it was. I tried to jump out of the car but the driver sped up and he locked the doors.

• The xdi driver had gun for hire who was trying to get on my good side. When we arrived at the destination he offered to take me for a walk. Away from bloodshed. I trusted him mildly so I agreed. I woke up later due to a phone call. Revy was worried. As she should have been.

• Apparently my body and face were bruised to all hell, and the person who asked me if I wanted to go for a walk was planning to jump me from the start. He even posted photos of what he would use and how on a forum. Revy changed into a police uniform and became giddy with ideas for revenge.

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• I was at an old childhood house. I felt like being nice so I threw a party for people and friends of my SO's. However they wouldn't leave after I had invited them into the home. A lot of the time being passive aggressive about it. Including my SO's.

Both dreams had signs of boundaries not being respected. Maybe that has some meaning.