Today I took a nap during work - well, during my fifteen minute break at work to be specific. I really needed it. Anyway, it was more or less a pretty average dream. I was working (in the dream) and ran into an old highschool teacher I got along well with as a child. I began helping her with her technical problem, before we eventually wound up in an apartment complex. In the dream I felt lost and a bit numb internally, and the teacher was more or less trying to steer me in the right direction though in a way that made us feel disconnected from each other. For instance, she kept getting the apartment number wrong but she wouldn't listen to me when I told her which one was correct (she thought it was '666' and I told her it was incorrect, the actual number was '193' - I was told that was our mailbox's number). This didn't make sense to me, and I didn't feel listened to, so I walked off.
Now, before I continue, I don't attribute stereotypical meanings to numbers so I don't see this as a, "She was trying to lead you to hell" dream or anything a religious zealot might paint it as. Not only am I unafraid of hell and it's inhabitants, I understand that 666 has no real devilish meaning or philosophical meaning other than being a product of it's time (
see here) so I'm going to skip a lot of the hell-speak and move into other numerology options such as the more generalized angel numbers...
193 meaning:
Angel Number 193 is a message to let go of any situations in your life that are no longer positively serve you. Allow the ‘old’ to leave your life and do not cling to situations out of fear. It is most important that you hold a positive viewpoint and have high expectations about yourself and your future. Angel Number 193 is a message to follow your intuition and take heed of your insights.
666 meaning:
One of the most important messages behind 666 is to be aware of your thoughts- specifically, ones that carry the vibration of worry, fear, anxiety, or being too focused on monetary issues like finances, and buying things thinking it’s going to make us happy, for example.
That out of the way, the Teacher followed me as I walked into what I thought was our complex, there were several strangely placed stairwells that might make you think it came right out of a labyrinth movie. None of them were on the ceilings or walls, unfortunately, they were all just strangely spaced or at angles that would make passage cramped. It just wasn't a good building design. When entering what I thought was our apartment, I entered the bottom level of what looked to be a very large studio apartment that was sparsely decorated. People seemed to live here, but it felt familiar, so it seemed like ours. The Teacher said that it wasn't, the top half was. I made the argument that we were able to enter without issue, but she said that was because we went out the same way prior...she spoke to me as if she were talking to a little kid and slowly getting agitated. She also liked to make financial jokes, but I wasn't a fan of them because they made me feel guilty over having a good job.
After that, she took me out to dinner. The Waitress kept asking what I wanted to eat, but I didn't answer. They provided alcohol, the Teacher asked for ginger ale to be given while we waited to figure things out. Around this time I noticed I was still holding the pillow that I was walking around the complex with, it seemed to be a comfort item for me, and I was adamant about holding onto it. Even if it meant not being able to drink something or eat something.
Around that time was when my alarm woke me up. Personally, it's clear to me that the dream was pointing out my financial insecurity - mainly, my worry of not being enough for my partners and only being around to give them the money that they need. It could also be pointing out December itself as this month usually incorporates a lot of heavy change and shadow work for me due to it's associations with my past, and the fact that my birthday falls on this month (ten days away actually) so all in all it's a rough time. I think my guides are trying to tell me to take a breath and stop worrying about everything, and that's appreciated...but I likely won't lol.