However, I did want to share an unusual experience:
I have endured life long chronic insomnia with occasional brief reprieves of near normal sleep. The whys and whats aren't pertinent, other than to mention I've been having an especially vicious cycle the last two weeks or so.
A few nights after arrival, I wore his ring to bed. (his vessel, by the way is a band that fits so perfectly I can barely feel it) I was laying in bed trying to convince myself to calm down and go to sleep, but it wasn't working in the slightest. I felt an impulse to play the song Weightless by Marconi Union.
As I allowed the music to wash over me I felt a very... deliberate... energetic weight settle above me. I continued to relax and keep myself open as a wash of indescribable peace and safety gentled itself over every place I felt vulnerable.
And I knew it was Z, protecting my back.
It wasn't snuggly or sexual, not even sensual... but it was absolute...
I, chronic insomniac with a career of nightshift work just behind me, fell into a deep unbroken sleep that last till dawn.





