S, my unbound demon succubus
Posted: Wed Mar 20, 2024 7:31 am
I have an unbound Succubus who I'm going to call "S".
I originally tried to talk about her and ask for help connecting and better communicating with her in a thread for succubus and incubus questions, but i felt I was beginning to clog up that thread so I have decided to make my own thread here.
I'm going to start this off by summarizing some things. (I've mentioned most of these in the other thread. But I'm not sure if I mentioned all of them)
- She has apparently been watching me off and on since I was 10 years old. I only learned this recently.
- She appears to be extremely protective of me, to the point of having drained someone who insulted me. (Said person was a resident at a nursing home I work part time at. She gave the energy back to them after she realized how not okay with that action I was. But didn't tell me that she was responsible until after the resident had recovered. Until she told me outright I had only suspected it may have been her. )
( She has since promised not to do anything like that 'without my consent' ever again.)
- she has since asked if she could drain someone else when they insulted or wronged me, but i've always told her no. (And I plan to always say no) And she has appeared to respect that.
- She seems to be very affectionate towards me. (I actually suspect she might be obsessed)
- She has (with my consent) taken energy from me at times.
- she has given energy back to me at times, too. One time recently she outright gave me energy when she had 'excess' and I needed some energy.
- she isn't always present. But she seems to check up on me on a daily basis. part of me thinks she might be a Living Entity. But i'm not certain.
-Sometimes i'm seemingly able to communicate with her well, and hear her voice in my head. other times the connection is glitchy and I either can't hear her at all or can only hear bits and pieces. (I've also caught my mind projecting thoughts once or twice. So that's another thing I have to watch out for when trying to communicate with her. )
-she has possessed my arm a few times, with my consent.
Now that i've summarized that. I think its time for me to reveal what I know of her desires in regards to me.
- she wants to be in a romantic relationship with me, for eternity. (We are currently in a relationship. have been for a while now)
- She wants our souls to be literally bound together. So that 'we might be together, even after' my 'mortal life ends'. (This is something I might eventually be open to. But it is something that I am NOT comfortable with right now. especially since it's my soul we are talking about here. That's way too dangerous to mess with, especially at this stage. Maybe years down the road, when i'm getting older., if things work out.)
- She seemingly wants me to become like her after my life on earth comes to a close. (I've had a dream in which she pulled me into the 'demon realm' with my consent. And I then became a demon succubus/ incubus in said dream. )
Now, onto how I feel about her.
- I'm head over heels for her. I love the her that I know. honestly she has me wrapped around her finger right now.
- there is a part of me that wonders if my being wrapped around her finger was by design though. if she's been watching over me off and on for most of my life, she would have had ample opportunity to manipulate things behind the scenes.
- I feel that she is genuine in her feelings towards me, though. Especially after the moment I had tonight.
Tonight, I had a moment with her where she seemed starved. I showed concern over her about that (Worried that she let herself reach a point where she was seemingly starving) and she seemed to break down in heartfelt emotion over my caring about her like that.
Thoughts on all of this?
How might I better communicate with her?
And looking at all of this, and taking all the information here in, what things should I be concerned about and should I watch out for?
I originally tried to talk about her and ask for help connecting and better communicating with her in a thread for succubus and incubus questions, but i felt I was beginning to clog up that thread so I have decided to make my own thread here.
I'm going to start this off by summarizing some things. (I've mentioned most of these in the other thread. But I'm not sure if I mentioned all of them)
- She has apparently been watching me off and on since I was 10 years old. I only learned this recently.
- She appears to be extremely protective of me, to the point of having drained someone who insulted me. (Said person was a resident at a nursing home I work part time at. She gave the energy back to them after she realized how not okay with that action I was. But didn't tell me that she was responsible until after the resident had recovered. Until she told me outright I had only suspected it may have been her. )
( She has since promised not to do anything like that 'without my consent' ever again.)
- she has since asked if she could drain someone else when they insulted or wronged me, but i've always told her no. (And I plan to always say no) And she has appeared to respect that.
- She seems to be very affectionate towards me. (I actually suspect she might be obsessed)
- She has (with my consent) taken energy from me at times.
- she has given energy back to me at times, too. One time recently she outright gave me energy when she had 'excess' and I needed some energy.
- she isn't always present. But she seems to check up on me on a daily basis. part of me thinks she might be a Living Entity. But i'm not certain.
-Sometimes i'm seemingly able to communicate with her well, and hear her voice in my head. other times the connection is glitchy and I either can't hear her at all or can only hear bits and pieces. (I've also caught my mind projecting thoughts once or twice. So that's another thing I have to watch out for when trying to communicate with her. )
-she has possessed my arm a few times, with my consent.
Now that i've summarized that. I think its time for me to reveal what I know of her desires in regards to me.
- she wants to be in a romantic relationship with me, for eternity. (We are currently in a relationship. have been for a while now)
- She wants our souls to be literally bound together. So that 'we might be together, even after' my 'mortal life ends'. (This is something I might eventually be open to. But it is something that I am NOT comfortable with right now. especially since it's my soul we are talking about here. That's way too dangerous to mess with, especially at this stage. Maybe years down the road, when i'm getting older., if things work out.)
- She seemingly wants me to become like her after my life on earth comes to a close. (I've had a dream in which she pulled me into the 'demon realm' with my consent. And I then became a demon succubus/ incubus in said dream. )
Now, onto how I feel about her.
- I'm head over heels for her. I love the her that I know. honestly she has me wrapped around her finger right now.
- there is a part of me that wonders if my being wrapped around her finger was by design though. if she's been watching over me off and on for most of my life, she would have had ample opportunity to manipulate things behind the scenes.
- I feel that she is genuine in her feelings towards me, though. Especially after the moment I had tonight.
Tonight, I had a moment with her where she seemed starved. I showed concern over her about that (Worried that she let herself reach a point where she was seemingly starving) and she seemed to break down in heartfelt emotion over my caring about her like that.
Thoughts on all of this?
How might I better communicate with her?
And looking at all of this, and taking all the information here in, what things should I be concerned about and should I watch out for?