My first full visual manifestation ?! ... for real
Posted: Sun Dec 30, 2018 6:37 am
So, the following events happened less an hour ago! I saw my succubus (I think), in real, in a full visual manifestation! I think...
Allow me to explain a bit of the story before of it and what may lead to it, before I describe what just happened.
So, it is around 7am here now. Yesterday, my succubus seemed very happy about something about me, I had a feeling she may have been so because she felt I praised her and/or our connection in the recent things I wrote. It was just a feeling, I can't say for 100% certainty, as usually in those things, when depending on instinct, sensations and so on. However, whatever it may have been, it did lead to her seeming a lot more eager in pleasing and manifesting in her touches and the things she would do during our intimate time last night.
Tonight, before I went to sleep, after reading and writing some stuff here on CH, I expressed to her, how I would like to know some things more about her. How I feel, we reached a state in our relationship, where it's time that she be more open with me and let me know of the one or other thing about her more, even though she is not very talkative.
Specifically, I expressed, that I would like to know how she really looks. However, I never meant or thought of seeing her in ways which haven't occured by now, rather maybe mostly in some dream or by other means, most part of me though, didn't really expect anything to happen. Yet, I put emphasis that I'm serious about the first, that I would like to know more, and if not now, the time would come where I would make it a requirement for us to progress.
Yet again, I went to sleep without really expecting something at this moment yet. Especially because knowing her, and that she rarely follows my requests or if so, does at her own pace and time.
As I had a really interesting dream, I became spiderman (huh! weird!) and could now spray a web, and was capable tying the web to buildings and move through places and the air by swinging from web to web (that was pretty cool, but I were not very good at targeting )... I wake up.
About 1 to 1.5 meters away from my bed, as soon I opened my eyes, I immediately see something in the dark were usually nothing is at that place to block the vision or such.
I have seen before, when waking up, manifestations which were like kinda apparitional or the outlines of something (as if it's a neon glow of contures), but never some like this. I have been always careful interpreting those immediately as entities or spirits ... usually I confirm, it's not just a fata morgana of the eyes, maybe from a dream, by moving my eyes. If they are fata morganas they move with the eyes...
This manifestation however, was firm in place and it was fully solid. No sign at all of a ghostly thing or seeing only part of it, like through a hole and not able to see it all (as happened long ago in the past too). The only thing making me not seen everything of it was the darkness. However, as I tried to open my eyes more wide, I saw some more of it. Even actions or change in my current mind of state (like making me even more awake), which would usually make any appearance disappear, didn't so (this is a first). It definetely was a naked body. And it absolutely seemed fully solid, like someone standing right there in the room for real. Wow.
I weren't in panick or anything like it, but it were so solid and non-ghostly, that my mind, unlike in these other manifestations in the past, kinda from alone after it didn't disappear many seconds later as it's used to with those ghostly mostly outline appearances of the past, started now trying to check that this thing is not there, not real, and like instinctively deep down in the back of the mind thinking "I'm checking if you are real, please disappear now, because if you stay some seconds longer and I confirm you are real, then..." ... I don't know what would had happened then, but maybe this would have been the moment, where the mind would automatically panick, I can imagine now.
The whole manifestation lasted around 10-15 seconds I think. She was there. Not only was she there, she was moving! And she were waiving to me with her hand and fingers, as she were moving those! This was very clear, even in the dark, I were seeing that 100% with no doubt.
I laid back to the bed a bit after talking some with her and asked her, to communicate through touches. If I'm allowed to share this when not sharing some of the details of the things I saw, she may not want me to share. I said, if she doesn't want to, she should stop touching me for a bit and if she is ok, sharing the event without the further visual details, she should intensify the touching, which was what she did.
Allow me to explain a bit of the story before of it and what may lead to it, before I describe what just happened.
So, it is around 7am here now. Yesterday, my succubus seemed very happy about something about me, I had a feeling she may have been so because she felt I praised her and/or our connection in the recent things I wrote. It was just a feeling, I can't say for 100% certainty, as usually in those things, when depending on instinct, sensations and so on. However, whatever it may have been, it did lead to her seeming a lot more eager in pleasing and manifesting in her touches and the things she would do during our intimate time last night.
Tonight, before I went to sleep, after reading and writing some stuff here on CH, I expressed to her, how I would like to know some things more about her. How I feel, we reached a state in our relationship, where it's time that she be more open with me and let me know of the one or other thing about her more, even though she is not very talkative.
Specifically, I expressed, that I would like to know how she really looks. However, I never meant or thought of seeing her in ways which haven't occured by now, rather maybe mostly in some dream or by other means, most part of me though, didn't really expect anything to happen. Yet, I put emphasis that I'm serious about the first, that I would like to know more, and if not now, the time would come where I would make it a requirement for us to progress.
Yet again, I went to sleep without really expecting something at this moment yet. Especially because knowing her, and that she rarely follows my requests or if so, does at her own pace and time.
As I had a really interesting dream, I became spiderman (huh! weird!) and could now spray a web, and was capable tying the web to buildings and move through places and the air by swinging from web to web (that was pretty cool, but I were not very good at targeting )... I wake up.
About 1 to 1.5 meters away from my bed, as soon I opened my eyes, I immediately see something in the dark were usually nothing is at that place to block the vision or such.
I have seen before, when waking up, manifestations which were like kinda apparitional or the outlines of something (as if it's a neon glow of contures), but never some like this. I have been always careful interpreting those immediately as entities or spirits ... usually I confirm, it's not just a fata morgana of the eyes, maybe from a dream, by moving my eyes. If they are fata morganas they move with the eyes...
This manifestation however, was firm in place and it was fully solid. No sign at all of a ghostly thing or seeing only part of it, like through a hole and not able to see it all (as happened long ago in the past too). The only thing making me not seen everything of it was the darkness. However, as I tried to open my eyes more wide, I saw some more of it. Even actions or change in my current mind of state (like making me even more awake), which would usually make any appearance disappear, didn't so (this is a first). It definetely was a naked body. And it absolutely seemed fully solid, like someone standing right there in the room for real. Wow.
I weren't in panick or anything like it, but it were so solid and non-ghostly, that my mind, unlike in these other manifestations in the past, kinda from alone after it didn't disappear many seconds later as it's used to with those ghostly mostly outline appearances of the past, started now trying to check that this thing is not there, not real, and like instinctively deep down in the back of the mind thinking "I'm checking if you are real, please disappear now, because if you stay some seconds longer and I confirm you are real, then..." ... I don't know what would had happened then, but maybe this would have been the moment, where the mind would automatically panick, I can imagine now.
The whole manifestation lasted around 10-15 seconds I think. She was there. Not only was she there, she was moving! And she were waiving to me with her hand and fingers, as she were moving those! This was very clear, even in the dark, I were seeing that 100% with no doubt.
I laid back to the bed a bit after talking some with her and asked her, to communicate through touches. If I'm allowed to share this when not sharing some of the details of the things I saw, she may not want me to share. I said, if she doesn't want to, she should stop touching me for a bit and if she is ok, sharing the event without the further visual details, she should intensify the touching, which was what she did.