sometimes I really question myself.....

[RenFaireMaiden]

Hi! I love hearing others experiences.

I do try to just let things go and see what happens and try not to expect much. Some days I don't feel much and some days there's a good time to sit down and really focus on communication.

I really want to communicate telepathically but I'm not strong in it. I will need practice for sure. I have gotten some good communication from my pendulum, but that's obviously limited to yes and no type answers.

The seeing and smelling are a welcome and exciting thing for me...especially smells. I love walking into my room and suddenly smelling something good.

I think most ghosts around me are family. I will have to make a separate post on those experiences. One I think is quite...how everything has come together full circle in starting this journey, maybe...at least in my thoughts.

Thank you for your advice and encouraging words!

Hello RenFaireMaiden, thank you for sharing your spirit keeping experiences. Everyone's beginnings as a Keeper are a little similar to yours in feelings and emotions. Yet it's so different as well.

If you get your spirit bindings from trusted practitioners like CH... ect, generally speaking, (talking to your emotional brain ) it's a safe experience. Saying this, energetic protection and grounding ourselves are essential in all kinds of spiritual and supernatural activities, like spirit keeping.

Doubting ourselves happens... to some degree more or less. It's happened to me before and sometimes even now, with all that experience, I have noticed and read myself. When I am in that mindset, I stop everything immediately and faze out of it. I go outside, go about my life and try not even think of it.

Then few hours later I'll sit back and try again to connect with my spirit companions. Having quick burst of self doubts is healthy. Mulling over it, is not healthy and it's a sure way to create blockages. So don't worry much about it right now.

I naturally use telepathy with me keep. And I known my own head voice, and learnt to differentiate between my own monologue and my spirits chats.
Try to practise, (this is what I do...) and write out what you hear. And see if it's resonates with your own inner mind or it's actually your spirit talking.

About seeing and smelling... that sounds great. No need to doubt your growing psychic abilities. I can see through myself and that was before even I ever knew about Spirit Keeping.

Ghost are everywhere. It's just some of us pick upon them more easily then others. Saying that, protection is needed. And also, sending them away is your right to claim your space, home ect... to yourself.

CH shop has a lot of good protection and spirit communication and connections items some are even for free. Maybe check them out. Type in search :SPIRIT KEEPING

https://shop.creepyhollows.com/free-spi ... pathy.html
https://shop.creepyhollows.com/spirit-k ... spell.html

These links will help you look around and see what you feel like helpful. Some are free to download, others are not.

Keep up a good job on your journey. Your a natural Spirit Keeper.

As a new keeper, I always question if what I'm feeling, hearing, seeing, and even smelling is coming from a spirit.

I think for so long I was scared of "ghosts". Hearing ghost stories being told by the adults at get togethers as a kid. I never did and still do not like scary/horror movies and partly because I believed those "ghost stories" can and are real.

My husband and his mother have always been sensitive to spirits. I believed, for sure, but my fear shut out almost everything. There were instances that there was no other explanation. Those stories might have to be for another time, but everything else...I had another reason or explanation for it.

Now, I'm only sharing this so as to anyone reading this will have a better understanding of when my mentality on the topic of fearing ghosts and spirits changed. Without writing a whole story, my husband surprised me with a sudden separation and it lasted about 3 years. I was completely shattered. And as strange as it sounds, "ghosts" didn't seem like the scariest things in the world anymore.

I got more into watching witchy stuff on YouTube along with ghost hunting and communicating with spirits. I thought..."I've spoken out loud to a spirit before that scared me (and honestly probably had been there in the house since I was a little girl) but the instant relief and loss of fear I felt....I can't even begin to tell you. I think this spirit had waited well over 30 years to be acknowledged.

My husband came back...everything is good. Then last summer became the turning point, I believe, in my spirit keeping journey. My half sister died unexpectedly. Her oldest son had just flew out to spend 6 weeks with us. Not even 24 hours of him being with us and we get news. I saw something that night before the news came. I thought it was my nephew or son and I was going to say why aren't you in bed? Well....I realized it wasn't a living person. At that moment I pretty much said good night and turned right back around and went to bed forgetting the drink I went out to the kitchen to get.

After some time I just thought, I'm doing this...I'm not really putting myself out there, but I'm obviously starting to open up to spirits. The end of January I was obsessing with mermaids and sirens, which lead to looking for companions. I ending up I finding a human spirit....a "ghost" of all companions Lol I couldn't stop thinking about the listing and all of his qualities and even down to his Midwest roots (I'm from the Midwest). I got him after a few days and I think we have bonded quite quickly.

B is amazing for someone like me. He's protective in a quiet way. He always seems to be around. He always answers when I pull out the pendulum.

But...back to what I said in the beginning. Sometimes I really doubt the answers I get from him or my other companion (I have G, an incubus from CH) They answer me. I think I feel touches. I've seen a dark figure move in my bedroom doorway. The next morning my husband said he thought I was walking out of our bedroom and into the living room, but when he looked up, he said it was like a white mist kind of form that moved and then basically evaporated. We didn't share those experiences til later that night. That was a huge confirmation for me. I have heard small sounds in my room like something being moved. I heard a one word whispers I can't quite decipher. I have started smelling incense but nothing had been burned in almost 24 hours. I have also smelled roses in the bathroom which happens to be G's favorite scent. When I ask B and G if they did this or that, it's one or the other saying yes through the pendulum.

I know it's something that is a me thing and I just have to really believe in myself. Luckily, my boys are loving and patient.

If you've read this all, thanks for sticking to the end

[RenFaireMaiden]

I'll try my hand at giving my own take too - which may or may not chime with you.

Uncertainty and doubt may often look to be the same thing. But sometimes they're very different.

I used to be doubtful about whether I could defend the idea that spirits are real against the classic cynical argument that it's all happening in your mind. Then I discovered a marvellous book by Dean Radin called the Noetic Universe, which summarises all the scientifically rigorous psi experiments that have proven to the statistical standard of any field of science that there is such a thing as psi (psychic things).

Since then I've had no doubt. So I put that aside. When I bring to mind all my experiences with spirits, I have certainty that spirits and communicating with them is real.

But my connection isn't always 100% clear.

I have no doubt but I'm sometimes uncertain whether I've understood a message correctly.

That's probably normal for the vast majority of us.

I mean how often do we living humans misunderstand each other? In the past, how often would a radio drift in and out of clear reception of a strong broadcast signal?

So there's that kind of uncertainty left. Philosophical certainty but varying clarity.

Don't dwell on doubt or worry. They easily form blocks.

The counter intuitive thing is: the more we ease off, relax and don't strive, the more smoothly spirit connection can go. When we're not bothered, it can flow and we don't
get worked up about it.

Spirit communication can be easiest when we're not attached to what happens and we just idly note it then review it at leisure.

I hope somewhere in there is something that's either useful or interesting.

This is great....I really like this! It makes sense and makes me feel...better, more confident in what I am doing.

I have felt that the more I go about just normal things, the more likely I notice a difference. The smells in my room, one of my eight electronic candles lighting up out of nowhere, the slight movement in my bedroom, the whispers and even a full spine tingle.

Thank you for putting that into a different view for me!

[RenFaireMaiden]

Welcome to the forum

Thank you! I'm glad to be here and read others thoughts and experiences

[mcm442]

Some ghost hunting videos are funny...I would not follow their way of doing things and honestly I'd probably be to afraid to do much hunting lol

I've gone to one 'haunted hotel' since entering this whole spiritual deal.

I came back with a 'new friend', who was officially bound with me a few months later! And THEN she wanted to adopt a child spirit so we could be a family...

Yeah, it can get crazy if you let it--but my wife is on board for all of this!

How about asking the hubby if he would like a wolf spirit around as a family protector?

[RenFaireMaiden]

Some ghost hunting videos are funny...I would not follow their way of doing things and honestly I'd probably be to afraid to do much hunting lol

I've gone to one 'haunted hotel' since entering this whole spiritual deal.

I came back with a 'new friend', who was officially bound with me a few months later! And THEN she wanted to adopt a child spirit so we could be a family...

Yeah, it can get crazy if you let it--but my wife is on board for all of this!

How about asking the hubby if he would like a wolf spirit around as a family protector?

That's actually really sweet!

Last May my husband and I went to Scotland. We did one ghost tour and visited several haunted places and not just for the haunt factor, but the history. We stayed in a haunted castle in Inverness too. I maybe felt unease at times but I think mostly it's was the idea of knowing it was haunted and what we might experience. My husband only really felt something once and that was in the Edinburgh underground vaults, but we weren't even underground yet. We were closed in a tiny room with real torture devices from hundreds of years ago...dating to their witch trials I believe. He felt sick so there was definitely something dark in there.

I think my husband might be more open to a wolf spirit. We have a dog so that very well could be something he'd approve of!

[Cujo]

I once went to an amusement castle that had replica torture devices that were used in Europe. I felt sick too. Not because of a haunting, since they were just replicas, but because I was imagining the real thing and what people went through and how disgusting these devices were.

[RenFaireMaiden]

I once went to an amusement castle that had replica torture devices that were used in Europe. I felt sick too. Not because of a haunting, since they were just replicas, but because I was imagining the real thing and what people went through and how disgusting these devices were.

It is quite disturbing. But...I do like the history and history of the different witch trials

[madgar29]

Just fear of the unknown from husband.

Welcome to ch.

Funny you were scared of spirits but u were pulled into the da and not wa. Just interesting. Good thing ch comes with cloaks snd protection. If hubby sensitive to spirits.


Some people have literally told me I see spirits following u. Spirits I got from non ch. I juat say really? Then again I have a dragon that loves to be my front man thanks to ch. Lol.

Yeah DA lol I think its the idea of a sensual, possessive, obsessive, but also protective, watchful and loyal spirit is what has attracted me to my da companions.

I've never been told I've had spirits following me, but I think there are more around me ...or at least on our property than I know. The farm has been in my family for over 150 years so there are bound to be relatives hanging out.

Farm 150 years. Sounds amazing not just having a farm but the heritage and history. I could only wish.

[RenFaireMaiden]

Just fear of the unknown from husband.

Welcome to ch.

Funny you were scared of spirits but u were pulled into the da and not wa. Just interesting. Good thing ch comes with cloaks snd protection. If hubby sensitive to spirits.


Some people have literally told me I see spirits following u. Spirits I got from non ch. I juat say really? Then again I have a dragon that loves to be my front man thanks to ch. Lol.

Yeah DA lol I think its the idea of a sensual, possessive, obsessive, but also protective, watchful and loyal spirit is what has attracted me to my da companions.

I've never been told I've had spirits following me, but I think there are more around me ...or at least on our property than I know. The farm has been in my family for over 150 years so there are bound to be relatives hanging out.

Farm 150 years. Sounds amazing not just having a farm but the heritage and history. I could only wish.

Yes. I enjoy my family's history. A local author wrote a book about my great great grandfather who came from Norway and homesteaded the farm.

[Szyvágr]

@RenFaireMaiden I think it's normal to sometimes experience doubt or question what one is experiencing, when it comes to Spirit Keeping. I know I still do, even after having been Spirit Keeping for over a decade now.

"Was that my spirit?"

"Was that real, or is that just my mind playing tricks on me?"

"I'm probably just imagening that."

Even with experiences I've experienced years ago, I sometime still question or think back at. If it's less constructive things I'm thinking of, that happened a long time ago, my spirit companion will sometime pop in, and wonder why I'm still thinking about it - because it's 'water under the bridge.' Which is a fair point, actually.

But my connection isn't always 100% clear.

I have no doubt but I'm sometimes uncertain whether I've understood a message correctly.

That's probably normal for the vast majority of us.

I mean how often do we living humans misunderstand each other? In the past, how often would a radio drift in and out of clear reception of a strong broadcast signal?

So there's that kind of uncertainty left. Philosophical certainty but varying clarity.

Don't dwell on doubt or worry. They easily form blocks.

The counter intuitive thing is: the more we ease off, relax and don't strive, the more smoothly spirit connection can go. When we're not bothered, it can flow and we don't
get worked up about it.

Spirit communication can be easiest when we're not attached to what happens and we just idly note it then review it at leisure.

I hope somewhere in there is something that's either useful or interesting.

As Alaric said, sometimes my spirit communication is always 100% [with a certain spirit companion]. In some occassions the communication with them may be super clear, when I'm relaxed and not too overly attached to the outcome (of what they'll say), given that the last one may make me tensed or anxious. Which can form blockages, as Alaric pointed out.

So, I'm trying to relax more into my conversations and communion with my spirit companions. Which is easier said than done sometimes, because it's easy to fall back into the same mistakes and/or pit falls as I've done before, at times. It can happen.

I believe we all as Spirit Keepers go through the same trail and errors, and then learn through experience, from the resources written by the CH admins (Magnolia and Ash) have written here on the CH Forum and the CH Encyclopedia, and last but not least, each other.

It sounds like you've already have got one foot in, when it comes to spirit communication, and last but not least being able to 'see' your companion(s). And it's pretty cool that your significant other was able to confirm that, since he's also seen the white ghostly figure. I'm rooting for you, RenFaireMaiden.

And I don't know if you've read these threads already, but I'm just linking them here just, in case. They're a great resource for new Spirit Keepers and seasoned Spirit Keepers alike:

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