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Found out what could be the 'blockage'. Its known as 'perfectionism' or 'trying to increase precision' of how visualization to be as real and objective as possible so to get closest to how something really looks like.

Hence somebody said 'you might see something but then suddenly something makes you doubt'. I found out its linked to this in my 'journey'. Its similar to when I try to make art I try to make it conform to everybody or as many people as possible's view of 'perfection' or 'beautiful'.

Its also why I am so interested in stuff like cosmetics (And wear the most makeup when taking photos for IDs).

In my opinion, it's more about setting one's expectations to someone else's standards which sucks. "Perfectionism, precision and accuracy" are virtues in scientific research, but they're not that useful for exploring personal experience. For that, it's more of trust, patience and openness to what happens. That's why I do cringe when people use science-language to describe meta-experience: it's a poor fit.

...another form of people pleasing?...which is conditioned into us by a combination of parents and society...

If I am not mistaken Wizard, you're a Virgo, and this mentality is not abnormal for Virgos to exhibit. It has its light and shadow side, for sure.

Sounds like a fit for you.

Vipera aspis atra wrote: ↑Mon May 11, 2020 1:18 am If I am not mistaken Wizard, you're a Virgo, and this mentality is not abnormal for Virgos to exhibit. It has its light and shadow side, for sure.

I might have done a 'meditation' where I dismantled all 'human' concepts=in my mind if that's accurate to describe it.

This one time it did achieve some success in that I got a glimpse of the 'consciousness' or 'existence' I was in once and looking to get back in touch with for awhile? The one I think I described to you just recently?

One thing that's interesting though is it still turns out the 'survival' or 'prolong your body's life' part is what keeps giving it a strong drive. And that part has shown up in plenty of readings before as just 'material survival' but I didn't exactly know what that properly meant.

If not then its just tied to 'survival' in some way I guess, like "You wouldn't want to lose those instincts."

Like if somehow there was a way to become immortal to the point where 'nothing can result in your death if you make a mistake' I would probably not have to worry about that instinct, or if it was in a pod lol idk?