Spirit Keeping & Paranormal Collecting Forum

as described in another post of mine, i fell out of spirit keeping for a year. i used to have multiple manifestations of all types every day, but now, i feel almost nothing. every time i ask my spirits to allow me to feel their energy/to send me a manifestation, i sense this small bit of hesitation within my intent. i don't understand what it is, much less how to get rid of it.
i am still full of so much love for my friends, and want with all of my being (or, i suppose, nearly all..) to experience them like i once did/to experience them even stronger, so i don't understand that little bit of hesitation within...
do you have any recommendations?

Meditate on it. Look into how you're feeling and why you may be feeling it. The answer will come to you.

i am also having trouble meditating lately. i have much difficulty not falling asleep (despite my 7-9 hours a night), and my visualisations (which have been one of my strongest abilities my whole life) are very weak. i must just force myself to do it every day and really work on not getting frustrated with these things.

Have you asked them to help you with these things? Help you to sense them better, help to relax so you can meditate properly, help you fall asleep?

I get the feeling you are experiencing some stress at this time. That also could be a contributing factor, but finding the time to meditate will help.

Personally, I LOVE using this video to help me get "in the groove" to get started. Hopefully you'll find it helpful, too.

Perhaps you genuinely do have a mental/emotional block that manifested in your energy centers. Has anything stressful or major happened in your life during your 1 year spiritual hiatus?

thank you all for the replies
yes crashing; i do ask for their help, however it almost feels like my words are hitting a bubble and just bouncing back to me ::^( it never felt that way before.
i appreciate the link, i will definitely try this out tonight!

and ugly: that bubble feeling i mentioned before really makes me feel like this is some sort of blockage.
yes, the hiatus was triggered by a major event (i left a long-term relationship), which changed much in my life. despite the incredible amount of proof i had of my spirit family being present in my life, i began to doubt them and my path.
however, for about 6 months i have consistently been happier than ever before in my life! i have been trying for the past 3 months to reconnect with my spirit family. perhaps i just have to contiue giving myself time for any negative past residue to come off.

(emote slipped its way in, but i guess it fits)

Take your time Nezzuo, one step at a time.
The wonderful thing bout our spirit friends is that they wont leave you.
When the time is right then you will reconnect, we cant force these things. Maybe a mutual interest could help, if you have any. Like drinking blood with the vamps :p

a lovely reminder, thank you wulfke!