shadeofdreams wrote: ↑Wed Dec 16, 2020 6:49 pm
Hi Ensa, thank you for letting me read for you.
I got Ace of Swords, 4 of swords reversed, 5 of pentacles and Knight of cups
And your oracle card is: Answer the Call - "What's your soul calling you to do?"
Right off the bat I sensed that there's someone who's been trying to get you to notice them. It's someone who wants to create a deep emotional bond with you, but it seems you're currently on the fence with them. They might be someone you're currently working with, or someone you went to school with and that could be part of why you're hesitating. You might be giving them the cold shoulder but they're still subtly trying to get your attention.
I'm getting that you can be decisive if you want to, yet at other times you try to act cool or nonchalant, looking on with curiosity and detachment until the situation comes to pass and it's too late to make a decision. But this is a time to make a stand and to make a choice for yourself, to cut off the "bullshit" as it were and try being a bit more proactive in your life right now while still retaining a sense of balance in your life. "What is the calling that stirs from the depths of you?"
I'm also getting that you might tend to be proactive in other ways, but you might do it too much that you over extend yourself and not allow yourself to rest. "Know your limits." It's okay to rest and recharge from time to time, it's not procrastinating, and it doesn't mean that you're a failure or you're incapable, it's simply "taking a breath" before taking the next step. On the contrary, you could also be overworking yourself to find a distraction from the thing that really speaks deeply to you, thinking that it might be too good for you. (It's not, it's FOR YOU.)
You might lean toward being a pessimist, or at least you might have in the past, and you might be learning to overcome that now, but it's become something that gives you a sense of comfort at times, since if you don't need to hope for anything then you won't get disappointed. "Every moment is brings something new." No matter what your experiences might have been in the past, you can never perfectly predict how something will turn out, because each moment is like the unfolding images of a kaleidoscope, and it shifts and changes based on what you do NOW, and how you choose to perceive what has come before. "You're not who you used to be, even if you still feel that way sometimes."
Know that you either feed the potential that's yet to unfold before you, or you feed and perpetuate the cycles that kept you from going to where you wanted to be.