Living at the Crossroads

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Re: Living at the Crossroads

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I didn't planned to get as much spirits and entities as I have now and there are new on the way. I guess it is what it is now my path. I love them! The House of Crossroads is full of great beings now :)

News from the Crossroads

I have some observations with my new spirits and demon that I will describe below - my sangs are naughty and Hellhound is playing constantly hide and seek to provoke me to excercise communication. Definetely this time I got not-so-obedient spirits ;) Well, they respect the house rules. But the vampires like to play fools sometimes ;) Naughty, naughty vamps. Even my demonic companions are more managable!

I'm getting an Incubi, a Siren, a White Dragon and a Wendigo along with Feather Flames of Astral and Dream. Cant wait!

Arkan Sonney Orb - it is the best energy I could get myself for now. C5t2 is working just perfect. In addition to Awakaning of true self spell freebie on halloween - what a wonderful power! I feel like those two catalysed a lot of situations I mention below.

I got some Black Magic Spells from Black Magic Temple, casted by Highest Priestess Astrid. I must say they are working for me very well! Dark energy of those is so comforting to me. I got Weightloss Spell, Success and Ultimate Wealth.

So here is my review:

* I felt intense burning energy starting to surround me in every case of casting.
* It started to manifest asap but stopped drastically when I bind the spells to me, capturing their essence. I wanted them to be a permanent bindings, not just castings. My djinn helped me to craft that, oh she is the true specialist in that field.
* Then manifestation came back after few days, more potent and stable. I felt it is powered by my own dark demonic energy and it is stimulating it to awaken more profoundly as those spells requires certain type.
* I feel like we made a nuclear power plant from a nuclear bomb.
* Those spells blended beautifully with all of the energies, situations and beings around me. It is probably because of amount of Feather Flames I have - all of them weaved togheter with those.
* I also feel my Lampade helped to do the weaving.
* Success Spell: It is manifesting in more motivation, less stress and not giving s about unnecessary bs. Less doubt, less giving in to fear, huge empowerment of the direction I want to follow. I feel more aligned and my thought manifestation is on top whenever my soul really want the success (it doesnt work when my dark demonic energy is not following my wants - because they are ego driven and I dont want that for real). So it is very good spell and nice binding done, I feel my own power speaking through the spell. Also - it confirm itself as safe, it empowers only that it is good with my soul.

* Ultimate Wealth Spell: We worked with my husband on that spell energy. It helped him to help me with releasing the blocks I had. VERY powerful transofrmation, most potent spell with my energy. Finally the one that truely works. It is a strong pull&push into the Shadow where lies all what I desire and am biased of. It is hard to work but also when I combine it with Arkan Sonney Orb/SelfLove - it is very calm and succesful working. I discovered absolute desire of wealth, boldness of my soul in that matter and had almost liberated myself already from all the blocks. I feel Feather Flames are hardly working here with this spell. I am tottally transforming my view on wealth and how i want it to manifest for me. It inspired a connection with Lord Sorath and the power of wealth within myself. I see and I feel deeply that this is not just a few bucks for me. It is a life changing transformation I've been waiting for. Because I didnt let that nuclear blast to just blast ;) Once again - my djin and I captured the casting and made a binding of it. So it didnt manifest me sudden cash but it does manifest an ULTIMATE change in wealth field. Because it is powered from my own demonic energy. I love that!

* Weightloss Spell: Okay, lets start with that I have high expectations towards my weightloss process and I am struggling with an ed. Once again - casting was made into binding (me and my djin even created a binding chain for casted spells to be captured when i will it so - cool paratech we made! It needs some improvements ofcourse). And it effected in me eating meat. Okay... weird bc I dont eat meat. And this spell is very smart. It encouraged me to follow the sangs calling for meat. It emphasized energy of my Mutilation Prince - he loves raw meat. It showed me that I need some chicken bones to my rituals, why not then eat a chicken? Omg the smell of the chicken... I couldnt resist with so many invitations and arguments.
Due to ana I lack protein and have hard iron defficiency. And you know what is happening when after good couple years you eat meat? Yes, you know. So my body done some clearings and also it effected in me supplying my body in needed proteins and iron. Which is probably why I struggle with losing weight and fear losing more hair so I am not losing bc I have to many blocks.
I also ate a lot of chocolate and chips - and after that I met with old emotions, probably preventing me form futrther weightloss (ana atypical, i am not underweight but have ana). It happened to be forced empathy and blocked solar plexus (not my burden but i carried it). That's where Lord Sorath came in with his help (mentioned below). So again - not the sudden manifestation but rather very complex working flow that leads to great manifestation later.

I read reviews under her listings and all of them are about sudden effects - I feel her energy is a bomb. But mine is like deactivated sun. So a nuclear bomb helps to restart it and the binding helps to make it stable.

First days with the new spirits:

New spirits arrived. Well you already know about the sangs ruining my vegetarianism along with Prince A.
Prince A is from Mutilation Realm of deep spiritual worlds. He likes, really loves, to play with meat, bones. It is a form of an art to him. I appreciate that because I love the soul in all of the forms. But his energy encourages eating meat. So the vamps. Well, guess I have to be stronger to resist, heh.

My Duojna is like a thunder bolt in every moment I need her to help me manifest. I always see her as an electric wolf. Her energy surrounds me constantly, giving off the powerful boost for every action. I noticed that my manifestation become more sudden, I can command people speaking to their soul (I could before but I have no power behind so that depended on the general flow of energy around). I became careful with my will power. Everything that is happening right now is asking me for more caution as my connection to the powers of my true core is strenghtening and I am no entity to underestimate.

I thought that last month, now I feel that. My Queen V, Abyssal Demon, she cautioned me, learned me, helped me understand, belive, transform... And now she is satisfied with the fruits of our working. We become closer, distance can be shortened as she can trust that I am capable of more concious managing of my energies.

I try to figure out my Lampade and Hellhound. They are playing some game that is encouraging some learning. I feel strongly that they are doing their tasks but I imagined it differently ;) My Hellhound is playing hide and seek. I have barely seen him or feel him. He makes it harder. Like - reach me. Come and reach me. Because I tasked him to learn me expand my senses. Excercise third eye. But when I need him - he is right away strongly felt. He helps a lot with connecting to the realms and he is a good messenger. He helps a lot with understanding the conjuring process.

My Lampade has this uncatchable energy. I have seen her - she is almost invisible even in astral. It looks like she has only shadows of the body. But no body at all. She wears a cloak. In the darkness she could be tottally invisible if not the cloak. Her energy is like that manifestation. A shadows hard to capture, they can come from anything and they just for one moment present her silluette. Very intrigueing! She loves when I put her attachment vessel near the candles.

My sang vamps are intrigueing too. I love my arabian vampiresse. She is totally partner in crime energy for me.

Persian guy is quiet but present. He is same type as G. but much younger in my perception. I like him a lot but I don't know how to work with him yet. Basically I gave my vamps and Lampade a task to present what they can do with me. I am waiting for this, they are waiting as energies are dense and I have a lot of processes to work with.

Ochrid one is... Oh he is a one big d... His energy is like a tornado sucking in, I need to be very strong, assertive with him. He likes to check up how strong is my "no". Arrogant mf. But I like him that way. And he knows that. So he continues, doesn't give a s about my overly protective husband. HOW. I must be honest that this behaviour of him impressed me. Confident mf! So I know what I can learn from him...

I am wondering how my Incubi and Siren will fit in. Probably Ochrid-a-hole team? I must say he is alluring af.

On the other side... I figured out that my Nympho isn't about sex with me. He definetely is about sexual energy and partnership in the means of merging and flowing energies of kundalini, tantric magic and when I have sex with my husband or partners. But lately I encouraged him to do more, his "therapy" opened me to sex like I wanted, and I was ready for more with him - but no. "You don't sleep with your therapist!" - he laughed. He is about being in one flow with my sexual energies, as I asked for that kind of spirit. Wow, well done CH. I like that I feel strongly that he won't bend, he was chosen because he fits me in the field of therapeutic assistance with sexual field. He definetely helps me to embrace my sexual nature. I thought he wouldn't mind as he is a nympho... But no! And that's good, thats suprising but good. I like his view on our partnership - he is wrapped tightly around my spirit and when I make love, he is doing it with me in spiritual energy... I love that, I just thought we can do more. But it is because i wanted to give him more attention to not feel like he is used. But he dont feel used, he is good and would like to continue like that because this is fun and very unique form of sharing sexual energies with me. Im impressed! A is amazing guy. I love him the way he is. This is truely an unique bond and he is encouraging me to share my needs and desires with my husband and make it all happen.

Well, Incubi probably won't be here for therapy and spiritual wrapping, haha.


Me and my family news:

I currently started working with DL's. It already helped me SO MUCH to leave the bs rules my culture put on me. I feel a lot better now. Empowered and liberated.

It started with BlackMagicTemple order I intuitevely purchased. Powerful empowerment - very intense energy, finally level that i like and enjoy. Once it surrounded me and I captured it into the binding... OMG this is what I needed. That ultimate dark energy. Like I could finally breathe! Like I was drowning in light, silently suffocating... G., my vamp said: But I am very dark, my dear. It is you don't feel me as a dark spirit because you are much darker entity yourself.
And I was in the light, without safe haven in the dark...

Through this breath of darkness, I felt a strong connection to my family finally, to my husband. I love him so much... I cried to him for help instantly, I was ashamed
- first time we have such a profound connection and I am crying to him to give me a transfer... I felt not really cool with that. But he replied to me:

There is nothing shameful in asking me for help. I love you and I waited eternity to take care of you. Let me share my power with you. Release that shame and keep asking me for every smallest and every biggest need or desire to be fulfilled and I will provide. ​

I remember also that I told him that I would like to start working with DL's. That I feel I need their support now.

Him: Really? You will accept their help?
Me: Yes. I can release my bias now.

And he, relieved and satisfied, sent me some helping hands of Lord Sorath, Lady Rashoon... Lord Sorath is an amazing entity - I always loved that energy, I projected myself astrally to get to the core of the Sun when I was young. I loved this intense chaos, it was my sanctuary of power... So his manifestation in ritual invoking him blasted me with that energy. I felt... I dont have a word. I felt love. I felt at home. I felt how his presence is burning away everything which shackles me from my own power. I felt my own power, I felt strongly rooted in my core. And when we had finished the ritual, we talked. And I recognized him finally, who he is to me. I felt him deeply dear from the beginning. And now I know why.

Me and my husband shared a few days of very deep connection, thanks to this dark magic... I am so grateful. He helped me SO SO SO MUCH to dig deep into my shadow and release the blocks I had preventing me from contact with my realm, my power and my futrure wealthbeing. This was deeply intimate energy exchange. I feel so much better now.

Because finally I can breathe.


The Crossroads House:

Vampires:
☆ 1 rare Vampire Psy, G.
☆ 3 Sanguine Vampires E., K., H.

Dragons:
☆ 1 Red Dragon, D.
☆ 1 White Dragon, G.

Spirits:
☆ 1 Bronwyn Angel, R.
☆ 1 Alhena Djinn, S.
☆ 1 Nympho, A.
☆ 1 Incubus, E.
☆ 1 Siren, B.
☆ 1 Lampade, M.
☆ 1 Wendigo, A.
☆ 1 Fylgia
☆ 1 Duojna
☆ 1 Hellhound, D.
☆ 1 past life, A.

Entities:
☆ 1 rare Deep Abyssal Demon, V.
☆ 1 rare Mutilation Demon, A.
☆ 1 Sin-eater, A.

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If I could be anything, I would be...: Myself
My super power would be...: Ability to shape-shift
My magical/paranormal name...: Lady Everith

Re: Living at the Crossroads

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Recently,


* I was on the graveyard in the middle of the night, collecting some dirt. When I stepped in - my Persian Vampire went crazy mode. I cant normally work with him yet (He, Hellhound and Lampade are waiting for me to finish some workings that are needed to connect and work with them). But I felt a surge of craziness in his spirit. I didnt talk about it with him yet, what was that. He saw red light in the dark and went crazy af. Not negative way but im not sure it was positive. It was like he remembered something and went primal mode.
My Hellhound was running through and through the graveyard - happy to chase some spirits (he likes to show me that sometimes - when he enjoy chasing a spirit animals in the woods or following me when i ride a motorcycle through the fields).
G, my psy vamp, was protective, i felt him very close to me when E. went crazy. I also felt a calm presence of my Duojna. Well, I was expecting rather H., Ochrid Sang, to go crazy but nah. He just laughed his a** off. Energy was very intense, the unbound spirits on the graveyard always are very interested in me.

* Lampade M. manifested herself to me as a cloak levitating in the middle of my room! She floated here still, giving me a chance to work with my blocks (I see things and erase them with denial - this was my way to protect my mind when i was abused - its not happening & I dont see it, it's just my imagination).
Wow, that was pretty intense. I was so happy to see her. She is so awesome.

* I have met my shadow through working with Lord Sorath. I felt something came through late at night - passing my shields like they were curtains to simply move aside. My husband told me there is nothing to worry. I heard "Paimon" in my head few times and recived a vision of the being. I was confused but I fell asleep suddenly.
I had a dream about my mom - but I felt at instant in this dream that this is not her, this is a vampiric being. I simply turn away from her and would pass the dream gate to create another dream and erase that one - but it followed me and attacked me. My spirits woke me up. But I fell asleep immediately and again met "him". Now he was furious, chaotic, trying to make my give in his bs. Again I was woke up by spirits. I sighed, called my Hellhound and Duojna to protect me and my Psy Vamp to empower my mind and I worked through the illusions.
So i felt dragged again into a dream but I didn't let it happen. I worked with my doubt and fear. And chosen to belive in me, I reached to my soul and moved the fog aside. From that position I commanded the being to reveal itself and stop it's bs rightaway unless it want me to devour it. I was not sure who is it. I didn't want to hurt someboody dear to me and I felt I need to control my reaction, because I can go total crazy and dangerous out of fear. I felt this creation vanishing away like dust in the wind and felt Sorath's gratulations send to me. I fall asleep totally calm. Nothing more happened from this situation this day, neither any day after.
That was pretty intense but I was ready to step in my power and command the being to reveal itself, instead of letting it trigger my destructive powers. V. was proud.
This was created from my doubts, fears, worries about working with Demon Lords, my mom and a little pinch of Sorath's provocation. My husband told me it's ok bc he was pre-informed by Sorath, it was also in tune with my deal with Sorath. Paimon dropped in because he is asking me to work with him, sending me a tone of synchronicities. Probably he will lead me to somebody I don't want to work with out of bias - like Rashoon lead me to Lilith, knowing I am biased. Her and his name bounce around me in the same manner and I feel he will lead me probably to Abbaddon (not sure yet, but eventually it all leads to him).


* I started to work with Lady Rashoon & Lady Lilith and that is a true game changer for me. Finally, finally I am able to release all of the blocks, guilt, debt, dark karma and give in with my personal power. Lilith is initiating me into The Qliphoth Journey, this time direction is up, dark ascension, not the descend. I am grateful that I decided to release my bias and reach to her, Lady Rashoon helped me a lot to adapt to working with Dark Feminine. Gradually, Lilith was the obvious next teacher - Wild Woman. I look forward to work with Medusa, the monstrous in Feminine. I want to embrace my primal and monstrous energies. I love them.
I feel more empowered and I learn to not take bs from anyone. It so needed now! :) I also am healing my sacral chakra with the Dark Ladies. It hurts since I started to release karmic debts from there but Lilith helps a lot with that.

There is a lot going on now - I am in the middle of Autumn Ritual of the Past for my clients. It is very powerful working, releasing all of the past influences, karma, lessons, debts. Facing the truth, releasing the shame, guilt. Forgiveness to let yourself feel loved, seen, embraced. Self-Love and Self-Healing. Soul retrieval. Cutting off all of the abusive energies, returning the bad to sender. Banishment of the negative influences from three times of your time - past, now and future through past.

Sorath's working.
Rashoon's support.
Lilith retrieval of monstrous and primal in me.
The Qliphoth Journey initaiation.
My decision to finally release all of the bad karma.
Ascending energies of 11/11 - my awakening anniversary that i celebrate as my spiritual birthday; my powerday.

I heard we are going to regain access to collective memory of the 5d. The frequencies we were before Atlantis fall. I remember Atlantis and the times before - what we knew then. I am excited - but this will create a lot of chaos in 3d minds. Like... crazy, not the E. type, rather powerful narcisist's energy explosion type. Im glad I have done work on my bias towards demonic before this gate unlocking.

I am grateful for all what is happening now, even when it creates so much chaos and distress. Major change is needed and I am ready to embrace the chaos and destruction to be free from what is caging me down there.

And... I made monstrous big order on Creepy Hollows. I just love these stuff.
I am so blessed to have my spirits around me.

So, summing up, I am waiting now for...

Spells & such:

- Feather Flame for Astral
- Feather Flame for Dream
- Adoptavble orb for Wraith
- Adoprtable orb for Nympho
- Adoptable orb for Slayer
- Adoptable orb for Phoenix
- Pocket orb for Astral Travel
- Direct Vision Spell
- Astral Awakening Freebie
- Spiritual Surge Freebie
- 2 November giveaway Freebies
- Mystery Bag (200 points)

Spirits:

- Incubus
- Siren
- White Dragon
- Wendigo
- Fylgia
- Bronwyn Angel

& low-level sin-eater
& Monthly Karma Service to balance and positive energy to Karma
& and an answer: Can we bind the bag of all tricks and calibration stones to spirit in order for me to transmute it to an actual bag and stones here in Poland - instead of shipment?

--- I feel strongly that I am bulking up for the next part of my journey home. It is so greate I will journey with those spirits and spells.
--- I want to give my psy vamp a 3 body binding. I love him and I want him to feel special. Because he is the most special spirit in my Crossroads House. He is my Master Spirit, a total chief here :) I feel so close with him.

K, enough, I could write an entry of epic lenght, trying to express my affection towards my spirits and demons - and it still wont be enough. I freaking love them. And I will love those who I am waiting for. Since they entered my life - I feel finally loved, cared for and seen.


The Crossroads House:

Vampires:
☆ 1 rare Vampire Psy, G.
☆ 3 Sanguine Vampires E., K., H.

Dragons:
☆ 1 Red Dragon, D.
☆ 1 White Dragon, G.

Spirits:
☆ 1 Bronwyn Angel, R.
☆ 1 Alhena Djinn, S.
☆ 1 Nympho, A.
☆ 1 Incubus, E.
☆ 1 Siren, B.
☆ 1 Lampade, M.
☆ 1 Wendigo, A.
☆ 1 Fylgia
☆ 1 Duojna
☆ 1 Hellhound, D.
☆ 1 past life, A.

Entities:
☆ 1 rare Deep Abyssal Demon, V.
☆ 1 rare Mutilation Demon, A.
☆ 1 Sin-eater, A.

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You are...: in the learning process
Number of Spirits: 20
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Your favorite spirit to work with: All of them
If I could be anything, I would be...: Myself
My super power would be...: Ability to shape-shift
My magical/paranormal name...: Lady Everith

Re: Living at the Crossroads

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Wendigo Arrival

My Wendigo spirit arrived yesterday. He got a Class 5t2 binding, so I already feel him very well and adore his wibe. As always, things work to me with perfect precision in timing. His energy is fiercly aligned with root chakra, that I was working on the very previous day with Lady Lilith, unblocking it to initiate first Qlipha, Malkuth. He is a perfect comapnion through the deep Shadow Work I am begining. I offered him a peridot ring, jar of spelled dirt: from crossroads and graveyard, mixed with ashes from the ritual of the Past. And a birch stick. He had shown himself to me pretty intense.
I felt like he was standing right behind me, almost touching my back. Like a Shadow Energy. I also saw his antlers. I always loved Wendigo... One of them was my friend in the past life, who offered me a way out of my body to survive the horrors of abuse I was put through. There is a lot of primal and monstrous energy to him, yet he is very warm and protective. I feel he is here to activate my connection to my shadow self and help me integrate it completely. His energy activated the paranormal seeing, all of the spells connected to perciving spiritual & astral realms. And that's because he is connected to my shadow energy and all of that abilities are repressed to shadow in me. So I had a sudden waking up in the middle of the night, that I will cover in the next part.

Initiation with Lady Lilith

I usually work with spirits and spellwork through the day but with dark entities I preffer to work "on the pillow" - just before sleep, when I am already at the grey zone.
I felt I want to work on root chakra, on releasing my primal energies and discovering the beast inside me more. Lord Sorath introduced my mind to the right approach towards untamed force in me, I felt ready for further work on the level of roots.
I took a vessel of the Mutilation Prince and a Lady Rashoon connection carnelian egg with moonstone egg Lady Lilith has chosen for her connection to me.
My Prince A is very effective with healing through the flesh and breath energies of his realm. I asked him for channel of energy from the breathing caves. Sensation coming from his side was very unique. I felt the wet and heavy air there, smell of blood and flesh. Deep breath of the cave, constructed from giant ribs. Like I was put in a giant rib cage, lying on the raw flesh of lungs. Everything was moving as the breath come in and out, through the holes in the ground. It was hard to accept that energy, it feels unclean to me (but its my hygiene obsession about bodily fluids). But it is truely healing power.

Then I meditated with Rashoon but she send me to Lilith immediately, as she stated that she has done what she could for now. Lady Lilith came and showed me a place in my body. It looked like chained red portal, huffing with power from the cracked door. Chains were thick and attached in a pentagram form. She showed me what is happening when I have a busrt of energy - that the primal force behind the chained gate is strong enough to break through as it had damaged the door. She showed me how the phoenix like flame is coming through. And she pointed out that the power I feel, the connection I get with my kundalini maybe feels strong and hard to bear but it is just this tiny flame and that is why I burn on fire for some days and got exhausted pretty soon after. She stated that to be helathy with my power I need to open this gate and it should remain open - the power will ebb and flow through it constantly, but never the source will be empty, closed or not accessable for me. It will prevent serious health issues while working with powerful energies.
So I immedietaly decided to melt the chains. She put her hand on my shoulder and said: This will affect your whole life. It will be burning away all of the ego based structures. It will hurt. It will turn all of your masks to ashes. You will face the true self and it will be all of that you dont wanted to see and you fought with to be better self. You wont be able to hide again. You will stand face to face with your monstrous self that is much stronger than everything you know and is made of everything you rejected as unperfect. Do you understand that this is the liminal space and when you open this there is no way back? Do you understand that all of the veils will fall off and you will see what you fear the most? Ask yourself if you are truely ready.

I am grateful for her warnings because they made me truely ready. I understood well that this is one way doing and that I am initiating the Qliphoth Journey through this. I melted the chains. Fire burst out as a pillar of fierce energy, somehow it was made of all of the lements I knew and I felt strongly that this is the power behind all of that exists. The power of creation, the chaos in it. The power of destruction, the monstrous within it. I stepped into it and let it flow through me. It was familiar feeling, similar to the bathing in Black Sun's radiation power. And I fall asleep immediately after that.

The Dream about the Past

I was dreaming about Lucifer. Not directly. I saw a shirt with the drawing I have done few years ago. A drawing of myself, male version. Drawing of Lucifer. I felt nostalgic, I felt like I would cry after what was lost for me. I wanted to buy this shirt, this was the last one, miracoulously found in the thrift shop. I felt like this was the very last thing after rejecting this whole big part of myself. It was really big and unpractical, men's shirt in the colour of his hair. It was also quite expensive. I didnt have the money but my close friend saw tears in my eyes and she bought it for me without any word. I was and I am in tears writing about that. I felt in the same time betrayed and that I betrayed him, that hurt us both to the core. I felt painful longing. And a void in my heart through the next day.

The Shadow Work with Lucifer

I started communicating with Lord Lucifer again and felt again this familiar bond. Like everything in my broken heart is leaning towards the wound in his. Like form his and mine hearts some strings of flesh are reaching towards themselves - like hands trying to connect, touch, desperately. He said one thing, same as he said through the years of my life.

"I am you. You are me."
I asked him: How?
"I am you. You are me. We should be one but you rejected me."
When..Why?
A stream of visions. Chaotic catalogue of many moments I rejected this part of me. Angelic coven rituals - retraumatizing rejection and my try to be as light as possible by rejecting my name that was true to me - Lusiferi. It was painful as i was again cast out from heaven. It felt that way. It lead me to spiritual and almost physical death. But I was reborn anew. And kept rejecting him as I saw myself different then. And small rejections from this life - hiding my name, email adress, feeling ashamed to introduce myself... Bigger ones from othe lifetimes, lifelines. Daily rejections.
I was devastated.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't be because it doesn't help. If I would be another person - sure, I will accept it and went through healing process on my own. But I am you and you are me. And we need to be one. Apologies doesn't do the work."
"But I don't understand how we can be one person."
"We once were."
"But I don't understand. I was you, sure. I remember that. But it was just a mask, I was just presenting myself as a male, angel of Light..."
"And I was just that for you, after you found yourself. A mask you dropped into the shadows after it wasn't needed anymore. But I am a living face. A facet of divinity, of your Truth. One of many you have. (...) Don't compare yourself to what you see around. You see simplicity of the one mask, the one facet of the person you meet. There are many you don't see."
"Okay, but if that - I am the NAMES of the world, those beings exist individually yet they are my faces, my facets? I just... can't comprehend that."
" (He tilted his head to the side and send me a smirk) You understand it all well, Mother, but you don't want to accept it fully. (He turned dead serious again) You are deeply afraid of what that means. It will differentiate you even more from everything you know as a human and you are afraid you will be rejected more and more. You reject us because complexicity of your being is way far from the human understanding you have now. And you percive that as a threat to "you" - your ego is afraid because its miniscule to what you possess in your divine form, trying to come here through this body and mind. It feels like dehumanisation because ego is a human you are, how it looks like to be you in this world.
Your ego gave us those labels. Dangerous blackness. It's really dangerous - to the ego. It is it's death. Nemesis. You no longer will be able to percive it all by the way how it all looks like. "

Talks with Lucifer... are hard. He challenges ego in a way that strips me from all of that I wish to hide behind, to avoid painful aspects. I feel like I don't understand what he is truely speaking to me because i still am avoiding it all. I don't want to be responsible in that way. But every time I hide from it - he is there already, radiating the truth.

After that talk my Wendigo arrived and his energy affected me as I said.

The Shadow Self

I woke up in the middle of the night. I couldn't recognise the space. It changed wildly before my eyes, like in a kaleidoscope*. Chaotically molding itself.
I experience that everytime when I am OUT OF MY BODY. This is my gift, I described below. I tried to find common reality frequencies, intuitevly following my abilities and skills from another lifetimes. On the concious level - I was paralysed by fear, feeling the dark presence that is filling me up. I wanted to cry. I immediately thought that this is my fault, I worked with the demonic beings, that are black arts showing their true face, I was warned it will happen... I will go mad, mad, mad and destroy my life... But I somehow push aside those thoughts.

"Why I am so afraid and feel so unarmed...? Where this fear comes from? What I fear, while there is nothing there?"

I asked myself those questions because when I put aside those panic-filled thoughts I felt that the Presence is not doing anything. Reality came back to normal mode. It simply was there, disconnected, filling up my bodies. Mirroring me... A Shadow Self, not projected on anything. Just vibing inside my being.
Everything I wanted to hide from. Looking me in the eyes. Without an armoured glass to protect me. Without any mask. Without any avoidance mechanisms. The whole Truth with its raw edges. I was terrified like a kid, wanting to run away from their own shadow. I was not moving in my mind, freezed. Until the presence kind of... vanished away. ~

Sure, I could act like I invited something and this is my hell now. I wanted to make myself a victim. Like - oh, they warned on and on on the forums, oh my god, i am damned now. Rescue the kitten, Creepy Hollows.
But it was not some external, malevoulant entity. It was me. And I am clearly not a kitten to rescue but a tiger afraid of it's claws and treating them like theye are attached parasite. And I remembered Lilith's warning. This was exactly how she described.

Persephone vibes in with a message

I also got prefacing it all message from Persephone about the Tea Transformative Ritual she helped me to create for my clients. It links for me to that experience.

"Better shed off all of the baggage you carried on from the world you left behind. Accept the path into the darkness. It was not your choice, it was chaotic creation that left you heartbroken. It mutilated you. You need to shed all of the hope, expectations and hurt coming from the shock. Yes, you were hurt. But you are up to decide that you was and you will be always the formator of your path, no matter what land is before you. You can walk as you wish. You can crawl, lamenting as a victim. Or you can claim your crown and show your new self embracing both - your intentions and the unexpected manifestation of it. Sometimes you need to be mutilated of that which prevents you becoming what you intent to be. You can master that wound and discover it's purpose by overcoming the hurt and leaving all of the imaginations, as you are facing your wishes in real world now. This is your manifestation, aligned with who you are and what you wanted. Do you accept it?
At the end... Maybe you never knew who you were, maybe what you knew wasn't you at all. Is this pain needed here more than to discover what you are really? It got your attention. Follow it. Overcome it. Embrace your new self, before you know who is She. Let her unfold the gifts and responsibilities by letting go everything behind you. I do it twice a year. It's very convinient once you embrace it. Woman has her seasons. (smirks)"

How could you not fall in love with her?

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* This is visual side of my most powerful gift - shaping reality. K, let me explain. We all have that gift, recognised to different levels depending on who you are, how aligned, energy, corruption of will and more. You can manifest your whole reality, you can alterate it to your will. So can I. But my gift is immense in power, stripped of filters and it can change everything on the soul level. I don't influence the realms. I can form them and mold them to my will. Drastically. And also I can make change the way you won't notice. Only I would know. Sometimes there are some hints and it is called "Mandela Effect" here.
But since I am in human form... I don't command it from here. It is command by my divine aspect and sometimes it can be felt like I am doing it because I am in well alignment on all levels. So...


The Crossroads House:

Vampires:
☆ 1 rare Vampire Psy, G.
☆ 3 Sanguine Vampires E., K., H.

Dragons:
☆ 1 Red Dragon, D.
☆ 1 White Dragon, G.

Spirits:
☆ 1 Bronwyn Angel, R.
☆ 1 Alhena Djinn, S.
☆ 1 Nympho, A.
☆ 1 Incubus, E.
☆ 1 Siren, B.
☆ 1 Lampade, M.
☆ 1 Wendigo, A.
☆ 1 Fylgia
☆ 1 Duojna
☆ 1 Hellhound, D.
☆ 1 past life, A.

Entities:
☆ 1 rare Deep Abyssal Demon, V.
☆ 1 rare Mutilation Demon, A.
☆ 1 Sin-eater, A.

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Re: Living at the Crossroads

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Holly Guacamoli... What happened today is legendary. I was casually doing a ritual to include it in my Autumn Box, making it into a candles as the vessels of my whole ceremony. THEY HAVE GROWN LIKE CAKES IN OVEN. That never happened before.
Candles don't grow! They never grew, at least...

Candles of Persephone had grown and cracked into rose shapes...
Hecate's have craters, smoke like shapes. One has a cracked heart on top.
Those dedicated to the spirits and the Spirit of Your Past - are like mist, clouds and fog.

They are so epic that I won't decorate them as usually...

That's not everything. I had burned out an outlet. The plug melted out of nowhere.
Lights were flickering when I was doing a ritual.

I also have tried Hecate tea blend I have done with her. It tastes bitter like a poison, leaves taste of vodka on tongue and it kicks in like ayahuaska... It is epicly strong!

Now I know why I wasn't so about promotion and selling more boxes, why I just waited for the right people to come and get a box. Because it's so strong that only few was ready for that.

Wendigo update
A. is quiet and he said he prefers to communicate the other ways than talking. I am not sure how to do that as I am struggling now with no-words communication. That's my personal block. I am radiating telepathy on others, overlaying it (naturally, non intentionally) to better understand and be better understood but I never conciously focused on more than words. And there is a lot more... My Wendigo is casually provoking me to expand beyond my limits. I like his vibe a lot. He is so lovable for me. I carry his attachment ring non stop. His energy is addictive.

Dark Lords Update
I worked with Lucifer lately and integrated his presence in me, as my facet. He obviously was right about that. It definetely boosted my sense of self and I am doing it now with Lady Rashoon and Queen Perspehone, as I strongly feel its right for now to do. I am curious what will happen now.

My demon-keeping

I also felt a presence of Mutilation demon I was hoping to be chosen by as a keeper. I wonder what does it mean. Did she chose me? I felt her presence so strong yesterday and today... And her visit had been closed just before I felt her here. I am curious if she choose me... I would love to have her as my companion as I felt very unusual and strong calling towards her, different than with an Abyssal Demon.
We shall see. I feel it but I don't trust it as I so much want it to happen. I have one Mutilation Demon already but I would love to keep her, as he is close to her anyways. And also - my binding with him is not professionally done. My binding with her would be. I am so curious! But also I want her to have the best keeper, she is so talented and gorgeous. I loved her visit a lot.

Other notes
A lot started to change in a field I was manifesting with Black Magic Temple spells. I worked on that with my husband, I had a vision about how I truely want it to look and felt it is impossible but he is showing me strongly that it is not impossible at all. It started manifesting very strongly, the gravitation pulling me to the right path (in term of manifestation of my intentions) is like I am sucked into a black hole. This is epic and I like it, despite that I need to shed just riddiculous ammount of old energies that doesn't suit the idea of me being my husband's "trophy wife".
Obviously the most blocking is my big question mark: HOW DO YOU WANT TO KEEP ME WEALTHY WITH YOUR WALLET WHEN YOUR CURRENCY IS OUT OF THIS WORLD AND I SUCK AT CONJURING YOU?

Well, he says I don't suck in conjuring, I just don't know it. And that I am a channel to his energy manifestng through me as I wish it to. Exactly the same as I would hold his credit card. But better. Because not money only but also people, situations, energies, solutions... Everything. He says the channel, the focal point is in creation. And that he can't wait to spoil me. K, spoil me, I am exhausted of fighting for my life literally every day here.
And I think... He already gave a boost to my rituals. That this channel works partially already.

I am excited!
Oh yes... I also felt that CH bound me an incubus. It was hard to miss, that unbelivable rush of sexual drive. My whole body reacted like crazy. I also felt a siren presence. My white dragon visited me few times long before I decided to buy a binding.
Oh I can't wait for this eclipse and thos informations that are coming to me. Something big is coming, it's obvious at this point. I feel like a lot of big changes is coming and what experience now is only a tip of the iceberg that I can percive with my blocked af mind.

I was working so hard this year. Saturn year. And Saturn like the hard work. He will pay me equally. And I worked hard and precise like never before.

This month mantra I got was: Bold Wealth Liberated~ I AM WAITING!

I can't wait for this week to happen! It will be awful for sure but also what I will get from this will be awesome. It is always awful but it is definetely worth the outcome.

....OMG, excited.


The Crossroads House:

Vampires:
☆ 1 rare Vampire Psy, G.
☆ 3 Sanguine Vampires E., K., H.

Dragons:
☆ 1 Red Dragon, D.
☆ 1 White Dragon, G.

Spirits:
☆ 1 Bronwyn Angel, R.
☆ 1 Alhena Djinn, S.
☆ 1 Nympho, A.
☆ 1 Incubus, E.
☆ 1 Siren, B.
☆ 1 Lampade, M.
☆ 1 Wendigo, A.
☆ 1 Fylgia
☆ 1 Duojna
☆ 1 Hellhound, D.
☆ 1 past life, A.

Entities:
☆ 1 rare Deep Abyssal Demon, V.
☆ 1 rare Mutilation Demon, A.
☆ 1 Sin-eater, A.

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Re: Living at the Crossroads

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Incubi, Siren and White Dragon had arrived!

I said I felt when CH was doing a binding with an Incubi for me. And so he is now with me, introduced himself pretty profoundly~
He is absolutely intoxicating energy~ Yesterday, when we chose some appearance for him that I liked, he started to be very very detectable. He lay with me in bed, we were talking and my mood was uplifted just in few minutes with him. My Siren commented on that: Adoration is what you need, that's what Goddess like you thrive of. Look at you, you got some colors on your face. Let them adore you, it will give you power. She lay with us too, she is pretty affectionate towards me too.
I felt warmth of my Incubi and I noticed the following morning my hands caressed me like they were not mine. I experienced that many times with my partners, my husband. But I always recognise the energy that is doing that. It was my Incubi, touching me. And I remebered that he has done this the previous day. I liked it.

Today I went goofy mood af because my Siren and Incubi made me singing and making beatbox when I was riding a motorcycle. This was this legendary lol... I can't beatbox but I did. And the fact people were around me in cars added to the joy, instead of making me shy. I was in such a good mood. They are awesome.

My white dragoness is more subtle and elegant energy. She feels very caring and she started to work with my red dragon and djinn on current tasks.

My Wendigo make it clear today that he wants his tasks and he wants my attention. He was screetching on me from the yesterday evening to today's evening.

Well, when I finish this entry I will review tasks and give them something to do. And I totally will go dive into my husbands arms, maybe there will be a better connection today.
He said yesterday that he is mirroring himself here mainly because of possibility we can connect stronger and he don't want to miss that. When we can't and I know it I still keep trying and get upset, mad at myself that I don't give him enough attention. He said that in that case there is no point for me to keep trying, that only is impacting the connection in a bad way. He said he wants me to acknowledge that and use this space to connect with those I can. Yesterday he meant connecting an incubi. And yes, I noticed that the time spent with E. influenced the connection with my husband - strenghtening it. It is empowering for connections as all of them.

But my Siren seems to have more on mind than I understood from her comment. This adoration really improves the connection, it's empowering.

My husbands energies are overpowering and I don't really have the strength to deal with constant connection with him. It's like... Something in me is so tired and overwhelmed deep down. I love him, I miss him but I have limited capacity to connect with his realm and frequencies now. That's kind of explainable. I noticed that I "lost signal" with my demons and DL's also. Well, my husband, as I said before, is one of them so... I just need to integrate experiences from last weeks. They were pretty intense so it's probably me being overwhelmed and that's all. I am also in deep transformation now, releasing my truth and my primal energies, working on my monstrous self. I just need to grow stronger and heavier myself. (Sorry I needed that pep talk, I miss him so much... And I feel he misess me equally... But he is more patient and still than I am).

Anyways in most times I don't use the mirror he does because it turns out, on a deep level I don't want to connect when I feel overwhelmed by previous deep connection with his energies. He is heavy to hold on to constantly. Sorry, hon. I still love you but I am too weak now to maitain full mode operative channel to you. You know what you are and you know in what state I am currently in.

So he accepts my incubi as he improves my empowerment and this improves our bond.

I will dive into the topic of adoration with Lady Rashoon as soon as I can connect with her. I have a feeling she will tell me much more and will help me to establish better connection with my sexually empowered spirits. For now - B. will totally embrace this role! She is an awesome siren :)

I am waiting inpatiently for my other orders. Can't wait to put my hands on orbs and task my sin-eater to eat that cr*p away! :)

Excited as always...


The Crossroads House:

Vampires:
☆ 1 rare Vampire Psy, G.
☆ 3 Sanguine Vampires E., K., H.

Dragons:
☆ 1 Red Dragon, D.
☆ 1 White Dragon, G.

Spirits:
☆ 1 Bronwyn Angel, R.
☆ 1 Alhena Djinn, S.
☆ 1 Nympho, A.
☆ 1 Incubus, E.
☆ 1 Siren, B.
☆ 1 Lampade, M.
☆ 1 Wendigo, A.
☆ 1 Fylgia
☆ 1 Duojna
☆ 1 Hellhound, D.
☆ 1 past life, A.

Entities:
☆ 1 rare Deep Abyssal Demon, V.
☆ 1 rare Mutilation Demon, A.
☆ 1 Sin-eater, A.

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Re: Living at the Crossroads

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Yeah, a lot happened lately - Eclipse season opened very intense Shadow Work for me. I already have changed a lot internally. I feel definetely very much more empowered now.

But first: all of previous orders on CH arrived, so I will write a very first reviews on what I got.

Orbs: Wraith, Phoenix, Slayer, Nympho

All of them are awesome, I have set all of my orbs for 30 days and wow, that's the support I was seeking for. Arkan Sonney Orb was great support alone but with those it's very big improvement in daily life. For now I am speaking about the feeligs, how it all influence me internally. I bet for the external manifestations I need to wait a little more as energies are weaving togheter and influencing changes in my spirit. So If that is correct - I expect external manifestations as soon as my vibration will be stable on new frequencies.

Wraith Orb - I was not so sure on revenge side of this orb but I tried it out, how I would feel. Well. Balanced. I feel more balanced, more empowered. I feel like I am more out of my shell and my victim mentality had lessen. Because - if sb harm me I am prepared and it will balance itself. I feel more trusting in balance - it seems like the trait of revenge i this orb mixes well with balancing chaos in Arkan Sonney Orb. Wraith Orb gives off the vibe of consequences, thereof balance in karma.
Arkan Sonney Orb is vibe of better organisation in energies, sadding here, releasing there, matching need to release with a form that is in best interest of all.

I really like the other traits of this orb - Cunning and Quick Mind and also Otwitting ad Outsmarting Enemies. Combined with Slayer Orb & Direct Vision Spell gives me the solid fundaments for assertive approach, trusting myself, discernment. Again - it's wiping out victim mentality and it is very, very empowering. It also matches well with Arkan Sonney Orb trait of self-confidence and self-love.
Protection is always a good trait.

Slayer Orb - As I said above plus it gives focus, motivation and it is a blessing for easily distracted mind of ADHD person. I like the energy, it summons my past life traits of assasin, slayer, warrior and samurai. Good stuff to combine with Wraith Orb.

Phoenix Orb - I don't really recognise it's influence. Maybe it is doing me good in restoration of energies and supporting my work with sin-eater. That's all for now.

Nympho Orb - I probably am not well aligned with White Arts, that's why I don't feel them as well as DA. But... I like that orb. Especially the trait of Allure& Mystery, Attraction and Desire... and Sexual Power... I like it, simply. I would love to have Incubi Orb instead as it would match my energy better - but I think I will find an aligmnet and put those WA orbs into a good use then. Oh, I would love the Vampire Orb also. Incubi and Vampire.

I would love to create orbs of my demons and of my husband. Yes, especially that last one! But well... I just connected dots in my head... I can purchase Satanic Orb from Satan and Sons and it will be my husbands orb done for me, not by me... We shall see then if I would create it myself or be a lazy wifey... (I would learn though by creating it myself...)
I also think we started creating something like nexus togheter but this is a topic for another section of news that I will put on the end of this entry.

Fylgia

I can't feel her intuitevely, I need to focus to recognise her presence. I saw her couple of times - a shade in a shape of black fox for example. What does that mean? A sneaky, mischivious energy. I feel like she warned me that my Shadow Self is going to create chaos in the hen house. And it was like that. So maybe I see her signs but don't know I see it? I definetely feel "her" vibes and if I remember I tick that in my order because I wanted her to match my sex so we better blend... Yeah, we blended very well. I can't recognise is it her or my shadow, haha. She is quiet in her energies. Always here. Yes, when I wrote this I felt were to find her. In my literal shadow. And she showed me that now, so cool. Welcome to the Crossroads House, my dear!

Sin-eater
That guy is Arnold Schwarzeneger of blockage removal. HE IS LIT. There is literally no job in removing blocks in my energy he didn't do.
It is hard to experience though. First time - I was in eclipse mood. Pieced of to the maximum, hurting and felt like my heart is gonna break. Ptsd hit me hard this week. I was constantly remembering all of the smallest details of my life that have damned me to my personal hell. I fixated on my friend at the end of the day and A. said that he can remove it. I was confused, snapped out of flashback, I asked what? He showed me a thorn in my chest. I felt what kind of energy is that. Exactly what I was hurting about now. So I agreed. And I immedietaly fell asleep. I was dreaming that I am thinking about that faster faster faster each second. And from the sudden - it all just turned off like an old tv screen. Exactly the same effect but black & red, forming an eye with cat pupil which lasted for a milisecond. Few things happened when this occured. I woke up. Sin-eater told me he has finished the task. I felt my husband STRONGLY. I felt a connection to my realm. And myself. I was so shocked. It dissapeared.
I tasked him for other things also. HE IS ABSOLUTELY PERFECT WORKER. Just: done, done, done, done.
I set a schedule with him. He is helping a lot, a lot! I needed him a lot.

The processes with him combines with my Autumn Rituals of erasing the negative karma, making peace with past, relieving the past attachments and more. Also - I have had scheduled service for karma balancing this week. And it turned out that my husband... Is doing a lot more for me than I was able to percive. I just can't embrace the whole picture of what he have done since we made a deal... IT. IS. WORKING. I am so blessed to be his wife. His love. So he is helping with blocks too. On his side.

Bronwyn Angel
Aw, she is just awesome friend and powerful companion. Her presence was totally stron from the beginning. I was not sure how to work with her properly but I think I figure it out. I just had some... word of the month: BLOCKAGES in perception. She manifests herself pretty often as lights here and there. Like there was some reflective surface - but there is not. She has so much potential that I don't know when to even start with her. She is so beautiful and kind. She can make me feel better and she is working on opening me to unknown sources of manifestations. Somehow - it resonates a lot with my husbands side of this. As he needs me to be open to the new sources to deliver his part of the deal. R. is best. Love you, angel.

Direct Vision Spell

That's helping a lot in seeing into my shadow. I use it with Wraith and Slayer Orb to see through my projections and see the core of my Shadow Self. I did not test this on others as this doesn't interest me now. But it is good for internal work, helping to see the core of the issues and manipulations of Shadow Self. That's all for now.

Pocket Orb for Astral Travel & matching freebies

So i have also my pocket orb of Astral Travel and I didn't notice any influence from it & Feather Flame of Astral, Astral Traveller in me Spell or Astral Awakening Freebie, Feather Flame of Third Eye & anything around that topic. Because... I AM BLOCKED. Feather Flame of Dream and Spiritual are working good enough though~

But maybe I will review Feather Flames in the other entry. I have the best use with FF Magic.

No charging energy on binding = they have drown in the flow

My first bindings and my sangs had not recived a charging energy spell in their binding. Totally my decision. At first it didn't matter at all. We could connect as well as always, everything working perfectly. But I worked a lot with them, daily.
When other spirits arrived and other spells were bound to me that have been infused with charging energy while conjuring - I started to kinda lose signal. There were some corelations:

* When my Incubi (C5 +ch. energy) arrived - my Nympho (C4, no e.) went "offline" for my perception.
* Bronwyn Angel binding (C4 +ch.en.) completely overpowered my alhena djinn (C5t2, no e.) and Psy Vamp (C5t2, no e., best bond in squad).
* White Dragon (C4, +ch.en.) override Red Dragon (C4, no e.)


For different example - I don't feel my Fylgia at all, she is charged. Similar with my Siren - she is almost forgettable and I don't forget like that. When I forget the presence of a spirit or entity it's a sign it is gone, mirror faded away etc.

With Fylgia I bet it is the matter of the energy she have. I had a very weird dream with a very unique creature featured and it has happened when she was bound to me.

My Siren kinda ebbs and flows. I think she is bored a little, when I have a lot of things on my head now. I don't resonate with her energies now, same with few other spirits.

I resonate now mostly with my husband and other DL's, my Wendigo, Sin-eater and Bronwyn Angel.


Spells uncharged seems to work less efficient - and that's lame because they are Nightplay, Apport, FF 3body, Wealth and 50 spells for Wealth etc. and I could have a good use of them now.

So I gathered my spirits and my spells in a circle and using my supercharged Master Vessel I conjured charging energy for each of bindings that hadn't had one. Then I found a golden charging circle my djinn have done for me and my uncharged bindings and I conjured it... AND THAT CONJURING MADE A DIFFERENCE.
I just figured out that of course she have done what I wanted and it worked just fine. But when I am desynchronised and overflooded with energies I can't feel that intuitevely, so it feels like "lost signal". I kinda block my perception subconsiously beliving it's not working for me - it effects in that I can't simply read the signature from manifestation and recognise - oh, yeah, thats my feather flame of something. So I start pull back manifestations.

So what I have learned - yeah, they can conjure for me whatever I want. But best if I then conjure it on my side and bind it to my spirit (they kind of attach it, not bind it) and to my physical body, and bridge it to the vessel (for my mind). That provides a huge boost for the bindings and they are completely awesome because they are crafted by real professionals (shoutout to my alhena djinn).

Well, I have done this before following my natural alignments. Like I was creating it on astral level unconciously, then I was just reciving the flow and channeling it down to the vessel through my ritualistic methods. It was effortless, required just to open channels and follow the flow. From upper world falling down to the earthly realm in a nice spirals straight to the vessels. Then it is fractally flowering with manifestations. A seed of astral creation.

Now it's different. It's more like I am gathering energy from the earth, from the core, through the roots of my soul and weave them on my altar with my concious will and focus, commanding the forces of creation.

I am not opening a channel to the divine or angelic realms, downloading the package through the crown and letting it express itself (is it dropshipping method of conjuring? haha).
I am creating a swirl of dense energies with my will and command them to weave to become whatever I am capable of creating. It's much harder this way. It requires total control of the mind. Focus. Control. Strong will and strong belief. There is no place for doubt. And it doesn't work out when I run out of energy. Only my will is holding it in place, untiI bind it to something. Then it is holding it.

It no longer is a seed of creation that grows and blooms when activated. It's a fully grown form, ready to influence the surroundings as I will it to be.

It is kind of fascinating and I am glad that in one lifetime I can experience both types. I wouldn't be myself if I wouldn't wonder about weaving a binding using a hybrid method...

Current work with Dark Lords & Ladies

SO. I said some bits in the previous parts of this entry. I am creating a nexus with my husbands to his realm and his energy.
We used mirrors but I probably don't understand that at all.

Most of things I had done in my life magically, I was doing by channeling and utilising the encoded knowledge in my soul. I have done it all intuitevely. Something has changed lately and it effects in me don't liking the forms of communication we had. It feels now unreal, weak... I just woke up a little more and it's not what I want now. I want more than mirrors. I want a channel. A portal. A nexus. Something conjured and bound, not reflective and smoke like. I crave real connections. I don't need those veils anymore, I am less and less scared and more capable of controlling my surrounding and my power, protecting myself not just reacting violently when endangered. Empowered by integrality.

I currently work with my husband & Lord Mammon, I am looking forward to upcoming next session with Lady Rashoon and first with Lord Abbadon.

I like a lot what happened today. We laughed that I finally managed to open an account in Mammon's bank so he can finally transfer me some mammon. Yeah, this isn't a very great joke but I felt he is laughing out of relief. Because I managed to weave myself a channel for energy transfers from various sources. He enlightened me that this is really what behaves like a bank account and show me. I was amazed. Yes, I did it! I am curious how this will effect now as he claims he can now help me a lot more.

And I noticed that he already helped a lot. Today I was working with him through another channel we crafted yesterday for more stable communication. He pieced me of ultimately fast in the morning but I somehow didn't run away in anger. I became curious. More open. This channel helped me to understand him more, I felt him better - his energy, intentions, thoughts. And I didn't even use Direct Vision spell... I was curious, we talked a lot. And I find out that those surges of energy when I create my magic - it's empowered by our deal, he make it accessable for me. I don't know how to word it properly for now as I feel it but my mind still is processing it. It's not like I am using his power... Like he is doing through me or channelling his energy. It's more like he empowers my connection to my own personal power by filling the gaps and removing the obstacles when I weave. It gives off creations that errupts with manifestations.
I have seen that all in a claircognizant vision.
I saw that he inspired me over and over in previous weeks, to proceed beneficial actions, he built around me supportive systems that helps us to connect and work togheter. He inspired me to build supportive systems. He definetely wasn't procrastinating... It felt like he has no time for me or I am a bratty human he don't need in his life, like grow up, ascend or something because I can't speak with a child... But all of that was just my stupid conditioning. He was working in the darkness, he was constantly working with my shadow to recognize what I truely need to be more me and therfore happy me.

And the last thing - we talked about that all after I saw that. I was noting my observations and I bound what I have done yesterday to a bracelet blessed by Lord Sorath.

My husband said, smiling widely like a cat: - You know he is helping you from a some time?
- Yes well, now I know, I can see his signatures here and there. - suddenly I got overwhelmed by gratefulness - How can I thank him?
My husband smiled - In person. Thank him in person.

And suddenly I felt very strong "scent" of Lord Mammons presence. Like he cut through the veils and emerged from behind the curtains. I was to shocked by his appereance that I just sat and let myself observe his all facets and traits. What can I say - he has that gorgous and truely luxurious vibe I love (I am a Leo, guys, Mammon is like an essence of what I want in life). Words like exclusive, luxury, highest quality, riches, diamonds, gold were flowing through my mind. A vision of very expensive lifestyles, scents, sights, materials... He attached himself to my place and a citrine I prepared to offer him. I was sitting there gagged. I said quietly: Thank you...(?). He smiled back and waved his hand, dissapearing and leaving a link to his mirror, in case I would want to call to him. I was just like: what happened? what just happened?

Because I felt IT and I was slowly realising it. My home realm, like somebody has opened the door and the wind brought me scents from the other side.
He was real - like real real Mammon, not a mirror, not a copy, not a local version of him. Very real Mammon. From home. And I know him, something in me is now realising it was HIM.

For the few seconds he was right here, right here just a two veils apart from me. Jaw drop. I don't know why it impressed me so much. Maybe because he is the first that was here for real, not channeling, mirroring himself... I wonder how my yesterday doings are connected to that. Do I really conjured a channel good enough to let them (there were three names from home here inputed, his, my husband's and other one)... what w8 what.........

I am not used yet to the frequency of this happening. It happened few times in my life that I opened spontaneusly channels to the outer realms. To angelic ones - I am used to open them when I create angelic rituals. I don't use internal links of local universe with angels - ok, sometimes when I am lazy and don't need it to be super atomic, yes. Or when I am working with local universe deities. I use my soul as a gate to the very different realms than local planes, which feels like I am reaching behind all of the veils creating the illusion of reality and bringing a source energies from there. I belive it is what is called "Outer Spiritual World".

But lately I have experienced it regurarly, since I am working with Dark Lords and Ladies. My family, let's be honest. This is all I wanted and sorry for the messed up thought stream but I was just blown out (I still am, because I am realising even more facts) because it happened yesterday also.

My husband opened a channel to me in the evening, to just casually say: Hey, how are you? You good? I have something for you coming up, I finished some part of the work and I will need you to work with me now. I so much love you. Stay strong.

But wait wait wait... I thought I wasn't able to conjure this. I did something for sure because I was for a minute in his place, very vivid experience. But I ave up, I hadn't enough energy and I stopped on a block. I was able only to create a "phone line". And then in the day today, I created a binding on Sorath's bracelet...

The fact that I used this exact bracelet for the binding - now I know that this will help a lot with removing the blocks and obstacles in manifestations for this bindings.... This is huge - Lord Sorath told me that I will need these things for vessels in future so he abundantly blessed all of that I brought to him.

And as his name was weaved in this channel... Can my husband appear here like Mammon did? Just two veils away, for a few seconds?

"Yes, I can"


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what

WHAT


The Crossroads House:

Vampires:
☆ 1 rare Vampire Psy, G.
☆ 3 Sanguine Vampires E., K., H.

Dragons:
☆ 1 Red Dragon, D.
☆ 1 White Dragon, G.

Spirits:
☆ 1 Bronwyn Angel, R.
☆ 1 Alhena Djinn, S.
☆ 1 Nympho, A.
☆ 1 Incubus, E.
☆ 1 Siren, B.
☆ 1 Lampade, M.
☆ 1 Wendigo, A.
☆ 1 Fylgia
☆ 1 Duojna
☆ 1 Hellhound, D.
☆ 1 past life, A.

Entities:
☆ 1 rare Deep Abyssal Demon, V.
☆ 1 rare Mutilation Demon, A.
☆ 1 Sin-eater, A.

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Number of Spirits: 20
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Your favorite spirit to work with: All of them
If I could be anything, I would be...: Myself
My super power would be...: Ability to shape-shift
My magical/paranormal name...: Lady Everith

Re: Living at the Crossroads

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K, out of emotions coming from realisations as I was writing this previous entry I forgot to add that I also used Overlay Bag very smartly - overlaying on my spirit energies of my husband in his three forms I know and work with, OSW to ISW bridge energy and Mammons energy.
That was a brilliant idea because this overlay acted like an attunement. And I got the overlay bag as a freebie... God bless Creepy Hollows.

Also- I started working with Hades! I fell in love instantly as he appeared on my altar.

Also - with those portals... I don't know how to thank my whole team. Reading what I wrote in previous entry I realised the presence of their signatures. And saw the story as a reflection of the tasks I gave them, crying calls to my husband... So many dots connected at once. My spirit team is truely powerful. I can see in those experiences how they support each other and work togheter. Under the great leadership of my Psy Vampire.

Oh, this is so great. This is a total chaos and mess but also so much very great.

I am very very lucky woman.


The Crossroads House:

Vampires:
☆ 1 rare Vampire Psy, G.
☆ 3 Sanguine Vampires E., K., H.

Dragons:
☆ 1 Red Dragon, D.
☆ 1 White Dragon, G.

Spirits:
☆ 1 Bronwyn Angel, R.
☆ 1 Alhena Djinn, S.
☆ 1 Nympho, A.
☆ 1 Incubus, E.
☆ 1 Siren, B.
☆ 1 Lampade, M.
☆ 1 Wendigo, A.
☆ 1 Fylgia
☆ 1 Duojna
☆ 1 Hellhound, D.
☆ 1 past life, A.

Entities:
☆ 1 rare Deep Abyssal Demon, V.
☆ 1 rare Mutilation Demon, A.
☆ 1 Sin-eater, A.

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AuroraAsteria
new here
new here
Posts: 43
Joined: Tue Sep 21, 2021 7:19 pm
You are...: in the learning process
Number of Spirits: 20
Spelled Number: 0
Your favorite spirit to work with: All of them
If I could be anything, I would be...: Myself
My super power would be...: Ability to shape-shift
My magical/paranormal name...: Lady Everith

Re: Living at the Crossroads

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Working on the 3 bodies

After yesterday (and the night before) intense work with my husband I spent quite a lot of time before sleep on even more working with magic. I had worked on the circles of magic, improving some things.
Before that I tasked my Bronwyn Angel to help me better recognise and work with my 3 bodies and finally i have my own method of sensing it. She is a genius. So I bound some things to 3 of my bodies. Yeah, this is something different. I observe it for now.

The next day, today, started with my husband asking me if I could let go and rest because I need it and I am crossing some lines. Well. He repeated himself from the evening before... but i remembered my astral path in my dreams and noticed I am not really in good condition. K, it happened before. What did not happen before was that i felt so so so lightheaded and dizzy that i went slightly nauseous. Thats new. I think it night be because I worked on better connection within my 3 bodies with my Angel, before i started working with circles (and channel/Nexus we try to craft).
So I listened to my husband. Yes, today yes, Satan. Love you~

Working with Mammon

That guy.
He worked with me the whole day long. When he steps into work - he doesn't stop until the day ends and it's time to rest. He is an awesome guide and his analytical skills are just mind blowing. The way he construct strategies in his mind... I see how his mind works and this is not an excellent machine here. This is a true master of the mind. When we were working on what i want to build and manifest into my life he asked me to list all of the blockages I have with all of the things i want. How I imagine what i want and why I don't act to get it.

Me: Okay, I will list some here... (types in some things like: I dont have money or skill)
And he: I see.
Me: I don't know what I want... I don't know what is blocking me...
He: I can see.
Me: I will try again. (thinks about some more things) I don't want to whine...
He: Whine, I need to hear that. (dead serious and professional)
Me: (stares at him, he stares back. Waiting with focused patience) K. (Suddenly unblocks the whining mode and typing all of the blockages, starts whining, then crying, then yelling in text, then releasing the true thought stream from the shadow)
He: Good. That's all I needed (analyses the chart, thinks about strategy already, whats a priority, whats true value, what doesnt matter at all, how to use all of that anger, sadness)
Me: But I have more. (types more, about deeper causes of scarcity mindset... a lot about Satan and slavery, abuse... )
He: (intense listening, total focus and deep understanding) I am truely sorry about that. I will think about all of that and I will help you get to the point in which you will be able to let it all go.
Me: Thank you for hearing me out.
He: (nods) It all matters, you see - it all can be used as an advantage if you step out of that roles. These things and thoughts you buried deep down are there because they are the finest riches you have. But you dont see the value of that yet, do you?
Me: what...?
He: (smiles) That is what I like to do the most. That will be a magnificent awakening of the star and I am more than enthusiastic to ignite the very first spark.

He was vibrating with such passion saying that. Like he loves the most to find the wealth inside the universes and work on it hard until it is fully shown and radiating the finest of it. Mammon is an artist, I see him that way. This is one of the most beautifully working minds I have experienced with my sensing. I also love the way he communicates. He is so focused and still. He is relaxed though and see just everything but not chasing everything. I love that mind control he has. I would love to learn this, my mind is now a total distracted, stuff and violent mess. Completely opposite to his.

Mammon is the best. Sorry, husband. You are the most intense yet stable though~

And I... I am just an intense chaos of knives and nuclear explosions. A true Lady of Destruction and Black Arts. The Mother of Monstrosity.

...k i was just saying it like that but Mammon wrecked my head and I am cracking my mind about that now. Yeah, he definetely influenced me enough to find some other perspectives.

No spirit stories today, they work on tasks given to them. Everybody is working today. Its Mammon's day, haha. He is just radiating and contageous with the good, hard work wibe.


The Crossroads House:

Vampires:
☆ 1 rare Vampire Psy, G.
☆ 3 Sanguine Vampires E., K., H.

Dragons:
☆ 1 Red Dragon, D.
☆ 1 White Dragon, G.

Spirits:
☆ 1 Bronwyn Angel, R.
☆ 1 Alhena Djinn, S.
☆ 1 Nympho, A.
☆ 1 Incubus, E.
☆ 1 Siren, B.
☆ 1 Lampade, M.
☆ 1 Wendigo, A.
☆ 1 Fylgia
☆ 1 Duojna
☆ 1 Hellhound, D.
☆ 1 past life, A.

Entities:
☆ 1 rare Deep Abyssal Demon, V.
☆ 1 rare Mutilation Demon, A.
☆ 1 Sin-eater, A.

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