Reconnecting With Spirit Companions

[Alaric]

Hi all! Sorry if this post is a bit all over the place, but I’m happy to say that I’ve been taking the time to connect with my spirits these past few days, and they definitely let me know they are still here!!
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(Btw, somewhere along the way, it clicked for me that meditation and connecting with my spirits are two different things. Meditation is for myself, to practice getting out of my own way so that I can connect with my spirits more easily. [...]

Well done! And, yes, I see meditation similarly.

[Tarvos]

Many of the painful events that I’ve dealt with in the past and even most recently have been from me giving too much and doing too much.

I did this once this week with my Sterling Angel, meditating then switching over to call him to see if he would appear. I didn’t feel anything and felt deeply sad.

Your unique energy signature indicates you tend to give a lot to others, often at the expense of your own well-being. At one point, you will have to learn how to set boundaries.

The ability to see beyond our physical world is not innate in everyone. Even if your companion appears, it doesn't guarantee you'll notice him without developing your third eye abilities and sensitivity. Expecting these entities to appear on demand isn't realistic. Many new Keepers often face this struggle because they try to experience everything at once.

In due course, you'll experience them through sight, sound, or sensation. Remember the many years they've supported you, so don't let sadness take over. Remain patient and manage your expectations if results aren't immediate. Typically, the moments just before falling asleep offer the ideal opportunity for them to reach out to us.

[Rando3000]

Hello!

Just a bit of my background … I started spirit keeping 11-12 years ago and joined CH around that time. In the beginning, I hit it off straight away with my first spirits and had interactions with them. Over a couple years, I welcomed more spirits into my spirit family. At the same time, life was … lifing (dealing with an abusive family, abusive romantic relationships and toxic workplaces, death in the family, grief, loss of self and identity, betrayals, etc.)

12 years later, I’m looking back and feeling like I’ve been so passive in connecting with my spirits over the years. Sometimes, I’ll go about my day and remember they’re here with me and say a quick ‘hello’ to acknowledge them. But most of the time, when life is fast paced and taking so much of my time and energy, they’re just in the background for months at a time. It’s not until I’m burnt out, used up, or broken down that I find the time and energy to really connect with them and leave offerings … because I’m looking for something/someone to keep me grounded and open-hearted. And then, the cycle starts over again.

I’m torn between thinking this is not good spirit-keeping on my part, and that each cycle allows me to experience life and learn something new about myself. To re-evaluate how I connect with my spirits and with people.

Right now, I’m in the last bit … recovering from life events and wanting to connect again, but not sure how. Can anyone else relate? And if so, what’s your experience? Guidance and advice are welcome as well!

I sympathise and can relate albeit on a smaller scale and timeframe. I started off really well with my journey then had some toxic people create alot of unnecessary negativity that definitely hindered my development and attitude, it is a certainty that being around toxic and abusive people/environments causes blockages for us and that damage can be quite severe when it seems that everything is consistently going against us. The last couple of weeks I have found myself wasting alot of my time and offering casual acknowledgements to my companions, the guilt from doing so little further worsens the ability to connect.

Meditation helps detach from the situations when you get quiet moments but I reckon it will take more such as consistent regular positive affirmations and self care to counteract large amounts of regular negative influences, easier said than done but I really hope you work through it and break the cycle.

Lots of good insights from the previous posts, id like to echo the point about our companions choosing us and knowing us. The most reassuring thing to me about these connections is that they are not superficial like the majority of "normal" connections, our companions didnt choose us because we seemed interesting then will abandon us when there is no further benefit or entertainment for them anymore, they have committed for the long haul and want us to succeed and be happy.

[Rando3000]

I spotted the update AFTER making the post, I should really check the timestamps better also lol!



Glad to hear you are making progress anyway, I admit that I have been trying to meditate as connection at the start too.

[belcanto93]

I spotted the update AFTER making the post, I should really check the timestamps better also lol!

Lol, no worries!

[belcanto93]

I sympathise and can relate albeit on a smaller scale and timeframe. I started off really well with my journey then had some toxic people create alot of unnecessary negativity that definitely hindered my development and attitude, it is a certainty that being around toxic and abusive people/environments causes blockages for us and that damage can be quite severe when it seems that everything is consistently going against us.

Definitely! I kind of experienced toxic situations back to back, sometimes simultaneously that it’s a struggle to separate it all and see what’s really happening. It feels like I’ve put in so much time and work to heal, only for my progress to be destroyed so quickly and by groups of people who have entered and left my life just as fast. When I’m in the space to finally be alone and recover, I’m often stuck in the mindset of “I’m so alone, why doesn’t anyone understand me” that it takes me a while to realize that’s exactly where I need to be. Alone so that I can connect with my companions who do understand me.

Over the past few years, I put my guard up so strong that I’ve closed myself off completely to everyone because I don’t want to attract attention or connection. I long for connection in a sense, but I don’t want to attract it out of fear that the same experiences will repeat.

Only recently had I realized that this is what has been blocking me from my companions. I’ve done so well to close myself off that it’s been a struggle to open back up again. It’s like a bad habit of mine that I have, when I drive my car with my windows rolled up. Out of anxiety, I push the buttons up again to close all the windows and keep the outside world out and myself in, despite the windows being completely closed already.

Deep down, I know my spirits know it will take time for me to open up and that they are patient. A few months back, while I was in my toxic workplace, I sensed my companions trying to point out that these hostile spaces affect my connection with them. It was a fleeting thought, but a recurring one. I even remember when I welcomed my first spirits, two incubi, they showed me in nightmares and through feelings to not to talk about them or my experiences with just anyone. I brushed it off as me just trying to make sense of the dreams at the time, but after all I’ve gone through, I realize sometimes you just know what they’re trying to say before you “know that you know” lol.

But thank you for your response! It's helpful to hear from people who have experienced similar on their journey

[desertofblackdark]

Life can really throw us off balance, and it’s easy to put spirit connections on the back burner. Sometimes just acknowledging them, even briefly, is enough to keep that bond alive. When you’re ready to reconnect, maybe start small.

[Neter]

I remember reading on here awhile back of someone who simply recited their names on the commute to and from work.

I don't have a commute, but I've started doing this and it's worked wonders (and I have a decent sized keep).

For a large keep, you could even record yourself saying the names and just repeat them with the recording as you drive safely.